Mauka - Troubled Waters Lyrics

I got trauma, and I don't even know what it's from
But I got problems, I feel like I've been on the run
Cause it manifests itself in these ways I can't deny
But I can't find why it's there, what's it from, I feel so blind
Do I have trauma
Or am I tripping, Numbing a lie
Creating visions in my head, I'm making a story, I'm really fine
Is it karma
For something that I've done
Or am I far from
Even a piece of the truth, don't lie
Am I just awful
I got no function, no fit, and no why
Why is this normal
I don't know how I always find myself in
Trouble waters, trouble waters
Trouble waters, trouble waters
Trouble waters, trouble waters
Trouble waters, I'm in
Trouble waters
Been hating on myself and
Preaching love that I can't find
And I'm scared to lose the will to live and
Leave the ones I love behind
Don't wanna go that way, it's not an option in my mind
But I wanna quit, just lay down, say that's it, leave this town
Don't let me go, I won't come back
Not after this, not after that
I'm off and I'm gone, I'm losing track
I'm off the rails, I'm going fast
You let me go, I'm gone forever, why does nothing ever last
Man I'm slipping
I'm slipping
I'm slipping
I'm slipping, I'm in
Trouble waters, trouble waters
Trouble waters, trouble waters
Trouble waters, trouble waters
Trouble waters, I'm in
Trouble waters