Head is throbbing
Just proportionate to the knot in my stomach
Or the ache in my heart
Head is aching
Keep finding solace in dissociating from everyone
Take a stand
Don't be forceful
Choose to care
Stay remorseful
These things all feel like uncertainties
And all the guilt I feel for wasting my twenties
Win
Lose
All
I'm not existing anymore
I live my life with lights turned off
Behind deadbolts
And those closed doors
Push away any chance to feel
While everybody tries to convince me
That all of my feelings aren't real
Try and hear the words you say
But i'm so inconsistent in the day to day
I'm so inconsistent in the day to day