Matthew McNeal - Change Lyrics

I always knew, I just didn't want to say
If it's a dream that I'm trying to keep alive
I wish I could awake
I wish I didn't feel it
But it's give and take
All of the 'could have been' good things
That time took away

Don't be so hard on yourself

What would it mean, if I put it all aside
Never settle for nothing 'cause something's
Just too hard to find
I threw out all the jealousy, it was heavy anyway
If I can't have always, I don't want it to stay
You can change your voice, change your style
Be who you want to be for a little while

But don't be too hard on yourself

Here I go leaving
Nearsighted dreaming

I've had a hard time finding who I'm supposed to be
Wasting time looking for a rhyme or a reason to believe
Oh, I need to take a moment
Reassess and realign, it all comes at a price
One that I won't pay
I always knew, I just didn't want to say