Matilda Modigh - Happy Lyrics

I wake up crying every night
I cross my fingers and I lie
Soon thy heavenly father
Sitting on his throne will send his light
Upon me, as I say my last goodbye

And I, I swallowed all my pills
And I, I'm better off

I, I was happy now I'm bored
And I, I lost my way lost my direction
And I, I just wanna be adored
Cause I'm seeking all the pretty people
Seeking all the pretty people's affection

Cause I, I swallowed all my pills
And love, I'm better off

And mama always told me I'd be happy
But mama you're a liar where are you tonight?
And no one ever held me dear
Hold me close while I am here
I'm letting go tonight
And sister please I'm not that strong
I wish that I could play along
I'm never gonna be as good as you
And brother dear don't look like that
Please, please forgive me now
I'm letting go tonight
Cause I'm letting go tonight
Cause I'm letting go tonight
And I'm letting go tonight
Cause I'm letting go tonight