Marcus Gray - Tinsel Tears Lyrics

[Intro]
Tinsel on the tree, tears on my face
Fake smiles at the dinner place
Can't take this shit another day
Watch it all just fade away, yeah

[Verse 1]
Mama's perfect dinner spread, I can't stomach none of that
Daddy's telling stories 'bout the good times that we had
But all I see is emptiness behind those hollow laughs
Christmas lights are flickering like memories of the past
Got presents wrapped in golden paper, feelings wrapped in black
They ask me why I'm different, why I can't relax
But they don't see the darkness that's been eating at my soul
Playing happy family while I'm losing control

[Chorus]
Tinsel tears falling down (down)
Christmas cheer drowning out my sounds (sounds)
Everyone's playing their part (part)
While I'm falling apart (yeah)
Tinsel tears on display (display)
Wish these feelings would just fade away (fade away)
Perfect family portrait lies (lies)
Hidden pain behind these eyes

[Verse 2]
Uncle asking 'bout my future like he really gives a f*ck
Cousin bragging 'bout his college while I'm feeling stuck
Grandma says I'm looking thin, pushes food I cannot trust
All these expectations got me feeling like I'm cursed
Remember when December didn't feel like such a weight
Before I saw through all the bullshit that we celebrate
Now the carols sound like screaming in my f*cked-up head
And every ornament reminds me of the tears I shed

[Chorus]
Tinsel tears falling down (down)
Christmas cheer drowning out my sounds (sounds)
Everyone's playing their part (part)
While I'm falling apart (yeah)
Tinsel tears on display (display)
Wish these feelings would just fade away (fade away)
Perfect family portrait lies (lies)
Hidden pain behind these eyes

[Outro]
Just another Christmas day
Watching my soul fade away
Under these bright lights, I'm so cold
Story that's already been told
(Tinsel tears...)