Mandi Crimmins - Lying to Myself Lyrics

I can't pretend
Cause it's so exhausting
And I'm getting nothing
I can't move on
Cause it's all I think of
Like mental handcuffs, and

When the truth knocks at my core
Why do I slam the door
All the signs that I ignore
And the voices I fight

I know I'm lying to myself
Sinking deeper into this veil
Lost inside what's supposed to be
Instead of what feels right
So I'm lying to myself
And everyone else
In the end it's me I gotta please
But the worst is that I'm lying to myself

If I close my eyes
I can see it
Cliched happiness
But then the world gets involved
And they say everything is wrong
Ohhh stop telling me about me

When the truth knocks at my core
Why do I slam the door
All the signs that I ignore
And the voices I fight

I know I'm lying to myself
Sinking deeper into this veil
Lost inside what's supposed to be
Instead of what feels right
So I'm lying to myself
And everyone else
In the end it's me I gotta please
But the worst is that I'm lying to myself

I know what feels right to me
But I don't know how to change
No, things have never been easy
Isn't that the way
So I'll pound against the walls inside my mind
I'll scream and fight, until that's me in the mirror

I know I'm lying to myself
Sinking deeper into this veil
Lost inside what's supposed to be
Instead of what feels right
So I'm lying to myself
And everyone else
In the end it's me I gotta please
But the worst is that I'm lying to myself
Sinking deeper into this veil
Lost inside what's supposed to be
Instead of what feels right
So I'm lying to myself
And everyone else
In the end it's me I gotta please
But the worst is that I'm lying to myself
Lying to myself