Main - A Confession Lyrics

It's time for a story on how I been feeling
This music like drugs that I been dealing
I don't know what's gotten to me
I just don't feel free, I don't feel like me
Can you just let me be
This doesn't mean I'm not at my bliss
Been way too busy just tryna make a hit
Just tryna be it
Just wanna be the next big thing
Too busy worrying bout the girls
Instead of all of the finer things in my life
Like all of my family, and all of my friends
I just want it to end, my roads at a bend
There's nothing left, my girl up and left
She was the best, better than rest
That is a lie, I felt like I died
Didn't even notice me when I'd say hi
But enough of that, she's in my past
Hope that by now she wasn't my last
I know that none of you even asked
But this is my tape, this is my story
I know that most of you been thinking this boring
But at least I ain't throwing you nothing
I'm throwing you bones
I wish I had hoes
Oh but I don't
I know I've said it before but
I'm not feeling sad
I'm feeling depressed
My life is a mess
And I'm still obsessed
With you, damn I'm a fool
Can't believe that I called you my boo
But now that it's through
I just really miss you, yeah
I just really miss you, yeah
Enough about girls
I'll give you some more
More about me than anyone knows
I'm insecure I got anxiety
I have addiction so no sobriety
I met a girl, that's why I'm not sober
I just hope that nobody knows her
Her name is Nikki, she is so pretty
But she is so icky to my heart and my lungs
It honestly feels like my life is done
I thought I had more but on to track 4
Y'all go listen
Y'all go listen, while I f*ck my Canadian whore
I ain't really done, man I'm back for another one
I'm on a roll, I'm playing shows
Stealing your hoe, now she my girl
These words are for show
Because I don't know where to go to get to the top
I feel like a rock at the bottom of the sea
I just hope that what this music means to me
It's a journey through life, from the top down to hell
First I dropped the LSL
Then I dropped speeding car
Thinking it would get me far
Then I dropped the tape
Then I dropped the diss
And that shit became a hit
So then I dropped a banger
Then I dropped a love song
Like I was Russ
Wasn't even about the girl I was with
Surprised she ain't fuss
Then I dropped the shit for my pops
Shit was sad but was a bop
Then I dropped a short one about all my exes
Then I dropped the second tape
Oh, hell yeah, that shit was great
Man I just feel like the music is coming up great
I feel like I'm going somewhere
Kinda hell bound as if
I'm tryin' to swim but I think I'ma drown
So I'mma turn that feeling into a sound
And play it when nobody else is around
Whenever I feel like I'm far from the ground
God give me the power to battle depression
Yeah, round after round
I wish I was famous, I wish I was rich
I wish I could just get up out of this bitch
But be careful what you wish for
'Cause it ain't everything that it's cut out to be
My life is good but not as good as it's 'bout to be
'Cause I got the vision, don't f*ck with derision
My music is risen, yeah
I'm not feeling sad
I'm feeling depressed
My life is a mess
And I'm still obsessed
With you, damn I'm a fool
Can't believe that I called you my boo
But now that it's through
I just really miss you, yeah