Mai Anna - Act III: Part Truth Lyrics

I could tell you a million times
But you'll still say I'm lying
I could push you away if I tried
But u won't stop till I'm crying

Why am I sitting on the edge of the bed?
With the man who I love
'Cause he'd hurt me again
And what do I do when I end up blaming myself?
Accepting the pain that I felt
'Cause he can't understand
Don't you know?
I'm so f*cking fragile
Takes me a long while to heal from my past

And it'll never hurt you
And you'll never have to pay
Safely claiming your ignorance to my heartache
Leaving me empty, empty
Oh you're leaving me pained
Can't even realize, realize
The incredible stakes
Leaving me wondering, wondering
If you planned this from the start
Making me vulnerable
Just to rip it all apart
Leaving me breathless, breathless
Tryna explain it all again
Avoiding words that hurt my head
Just to laugh with all your friends
And I had ended, ended
I undid myself before
Cannot talk about it more
'Cause it hurts too much to say
Oh, I'd pretended, pretended
I only grew from all the past
Forgave you and myself too fast
Over-preparing for the crash

And yet, I'm still sitting at the edge of your bed
Wishing instead, you'll never hurt me again