Maggie Long - gross Lyrics

Waiting my the phone I'm begging it to ring
Hate admitting your indifference leaves a nasty sting
I'm so the type to attach every single kind of string
And I get nervous when I think of you not in my life
Loving someone undeserving's f*cking suicide
And I seem so effortless but you don't know how hard I try
'Cus you leave me hanging I'm emotionally involved
And it's an understatement saying I've started to fall

'Cus I see us in photos that don't exist
I wait for your text like a little kid
I play it cool but my acting's shit
And we have conversations when you're not there
You say everything that I wanna hear and
It's getting gross how damn much I care

The way I never see red flags you'd think I'm color blind
Just put my foot down on the gas and then see what I find
If you've forgotten how to read you never see the signs
(Just f*cking close my eyes)
'Cus you don't get the way I'm special and you never did
I hate to think I wasted everything just to get
Half of you with problems I know I can never fix

I see us in photos we never took
I read your mind like my favorite book
I just keep waiting for my line to hook
And we have conversations when your miles away
You say things you would never say and
It's getting gross how damn much I've prayed

I say it's different but it always ends with
Me sick and stupid off regret and dread
If I could compete with your selfish dreams
If I could rearrange every part of me and
It's so pathetic that I could cry
Know I can't fix you but I still try and
You never say what I wanna hear
When I need you most your never there
And it's f*cking gross how little you care