Maggie Long - ghost Lyrics

I like to keep things superficial, mutually beneficial
So you can leave when you want and I'll feel no pain
'Cus in my pocket there's a pistol, I keep one finger on the trigger
Just in case the history repeats the same
And I hate the fact you don't know me at all
But if you saw everything, think that you'd be gone
'Cus all I have is a memory, a repeating melody
The same ghost still haunting me
I hurt my allies, help my enemies and
Everybody sees it, it's a shadow I can't shake,
I feel it every night and in the morning when I wake and
I try so desperately but the same ghost sits next to me
My smile helps me dealing with the things that I'm concealing
But when the curtain closes the underworld comes out
'Cus it's the nightmares while I'm dreaming,
It's the secret that I'm keeping
And it's the bitter taste that lingers in my mouth
'Cus I hate the fact that everybody hurts
So I'll take your pane and make mine even worse
'Cus all I have is a memory and it evolves endlessly
As soon as I get some relief and new detail comes back to me
And everybody sees it, it's a shadow I can't hide
I feel it in the air and in the tears that I force dry, and
I ruin everything 'cus the same ghost sits next to me
(ahh, ahh)
Stuck between the moments I can't forget
Man your drink sure has an edge
Counterclockwise, spin my head
Round and round until it ends
I hate to taste your mouth again
You f*ck with time and make it bend
So high the price of my regret,
There's no rebirth after death
So raise a glass and make a toast
To all the things you'll never know
Fool me once my breathing slows,
Fool me twice, all the air chokes
Don't play with flames, can't take a joke
I'm not equipped to handle smoke
I hurt the things I love the most
Until they join my other ghosts