F*ck getting better
I want to get worse
Skip every meal cause I like how it hurts
Wanna block all my friends
Wanna drink myself silly
Wanna sneak out at night
And run so far away 'til my phone loses service so I'll crack the screen
I'll douse my belongings in gasoline
And I won't return until I've found my purpose
If I die out there
I deserved it
Sell all my things and I'll backpack to Jersey
Under a different name no one can hurt me
I'll ignore everyone who reaches out I'm
I'm busting out
Cause F*ck getting better
I want to get worse
Skip every meal cause I like how it hurts
Wanna block all my friends
Wanna drink myself silly
Wanna sneak out at night
And run so far away 'til my phone loses service so I'll crack the screen
I'll douse my belongings in gasoline
And I won't return until I've found my purpose
If I die out there
I deserved it
Maybe the reason that everyones leaves
Is that I'm too hard to please
I want to improve but baby I'm losing myself in the dark
In the dark
I keep getting worse
But I should get better
It's too f*cking hard to keep my shit together
I wanna give up
I wanna break down
I push them away then wish they were around
So maybe the reason that everyones leaves
Is that I'm too hard to please
I want to improve but baby I'm losing myself in the dark
'Cause f*ck getting better
I want to get worse
I'll skip every meal cause I like how it hurts
Wanna block all my friends
Wanna drink myself silly
Wanna sneak out at night
And run so far away
And run away
F*ck getting better
I want to get worse
Skip every meal cause I like how it hurts
Wanna block all m friends
Wanna drink myself silly
But I've got to improve if I want to love living
I've got to improve if I want to love living