Madison Easton - Lukewarm Lyrics

I'm crying at the wheel
You're sleeping in the front seat
Things haven't felt the same
But I still get sad when you leave
If I think about it too much I get upset
So I'll drink to swim my head
Do my best to pretend
That the thoughts aren't prominent
I'm having trouble
Distinguishing between permanent and repairable
I think about the letter
I sent in the mail last week
It still hasn't been delivered
Running my hand under the faucet
Waiting for the heat to form
Wonder if I should stop it
I don't know how I'm feeling about what we have
I know you're not on good terms with your dad
I just want to be a part of your life
You keep me as a secret
I'm picking the lock with a knife
Running my hand under the faucet
Waiting for the heat to form
Wonder if I should stop it
Running my hand under the faucet
Waiting for the heat to form
Wonder if I should stop it
Lukewarm
I don't know why I keep having these moments
Maybe it has something to do with the way we're hurting
I haven't been eating
I've been procrastinating
All conversations and trying to believe
But you're there in every future moment
Is this a sign or aimless hoping?
Can't picture my life without you
You're so peaceful when you're sleeping
I told you I'd tell you before leaving
But now I don't even know what I want to do
Running my hand under the faucet
Waiting for the heat to form
Wonder if I should stop it
Lukewarm
We had all these plans
Chalk it up to unfortunate circumstance
How do I know which decision is wrong?
Try to abandon the thought but I can't
What would happen if I gave you another chance?
Am I giving up and moving on?