Madelyn White - defective model Lyrics

We can never go back
Back to the way things were in a flash
And though it makes me mad as hell
I ruin everything for myself
Telling you things I never told myself before
Questioning life and wondering what was it all for
I didn't want to lose you
Have to find myself before the world loses me too
Always needing more time, more space
Don't beg or barter
I already feel like, feel like a defective model
Can't explain how I truly feel
It's like I owe everyone an explanation for simply just existing
And I shouldn't blame myself
But I'm the reason you left me for someone else
Telling you things I never told myself before
Questioning life feeling like I've been here before
I didn't want to lose you
Have to find myself before the world loses me too
Always needing more time, more space
Don't beg or barter
I already feel like, feel like a defective model
You can paint me as the bad guy
But I deserved a better goodbye
I didn't want to lose you
Had to find myself before the world loses me too
Always needing more time, more space
Don't beg or barter
I already feel like, feel like a defective model