Mac Oda - baby i'm dead Lyrics

Baby I'm dead, come paint me in red
You tell all your friends I'm just pocket change but it's eleven P.M
And you're still in my bed
Whilst I'm giving you head
And you call me again and then over again, then why in the hell are we playing pretend
See lately I'm scared
And I'm f*cking depressed,
Spend hours and hours thinking in the shower, drinking and the powder, I'm feeling the power, like when you get undressed
Come bleed me to death
The three words that you said
Yeah, I'll never forget and I play them again and again and again inside of my head without loosing a breath
But I'm loosing all sense now
I'm loosing all sense now
Swimming in this nightmare
Tell you that I don't care
Living life like it's not rare
Drinking so that I forget
In my night sweats you'll be there inside my bed
But not physically just an idea
In circles like a metaphorical sphere
The more I think about you
The more I drink about you
The more I drink about you
The more I sink without you
Don't think that I don't value the times that I had you
It just sucks, it's such sad news
That I can no longer have you, ah
I'm stressed but nevertheless
I protest by holding my breath
And I'm loosing my consciousness and all sense
When I ingest way too many X's and Z's
Now I'm begging for help
But I'm bagging again
See Im a f*cking good liar when I'm feeling depressed
So I wear a bullet proof vest
To protect the holes I've burned through my chest
Rope burns on my neck
Im hurt but no threat
Like royal blood there's no sweat
But there's blood here on the bed
Poison leaks through my head
Drink the wine split the bread
Powder shines, taste the led
I survive but I'm bled dry from my zen
I'm alive or am I dead?
I'm alive or am I dead?