I go out every night
Storie's in my instagram
The city lights, the club we are at
The fellas by my side
Wake up in a strangers bed
Then I'm laughing with my friends
Seems like everything is okay
But it was all pretend
Every time they're by my side
I feel all gon' be alright
Wish that feelin' could be with me every single night
There's a secret I've never told
Never said to someone else
'Cause I kept it to myself
Hear voices inside my head
When I close the door
The thoughts begin to darken
I don't know how to stop 'em
It is my bones
It is in my head
Like an anxiety thread
Wish I could run from myself
But I'm stuck in my head
'Cause when I close the door
The inner dark unleashes
And the depression runs
All the way through my blood
It's a wicked game
My mind against myself
It's like I'm trapped in a web
It's like a living hell
I'm always in a hurry
Pretending not to worry
I know I'm gonna be okay
As long as they support me
When I'm with them it's like a glory
It's like another story
Then the book is closed when I'm alone
It's blurry
Don't tell me not to worry
When I close the door
The thoughts begin to darken
I don't know how to stop 'em
It is in my bones
It is in my head
Like an anxiety thread
Wish I could run from myself
But I'm stuck in my head
'Cause when I close the door
The inner dark unleashes
And the depression runs
All the way through my blood
It's a wicked game
My mind against myself
It's like I'm trapped in a web
It's like a living hell
Do you know if there's a way
To get this outta my head?
Do you know if it's my mistake
For not showin' my pain?
Do you know if there is a way
To be lonely and feel okay?
Do you know if there's a way
To get out this living
Hell
Hell
Hell
Hell
When I close the door
The thoughts begin to darken
I don't know how to stop 'em
It is in my bones
It is in my head
Like an anxiety thread
Wish I could run from myself
But I'm stuck in my head
'Cause when I close the door
The inner dark unleashes
And the depression runs
All the way through my blood
It's a wicked game
My mind against myself
It's like I'm trapped in a web
It's like a living hell