Nosebleeds Album Lyrics by MisterWives

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Out Of Your Mind

You got a mouth full of white lies
Tie it up with a bow, so it looks nice
You're looking eerily similar to the last guy
I watch the tally going up and now I'm so tired

Use me up 'til you've had enough
And it never stops
I got all this salt in the cut

Stab my back and twist it twice
Like that first time, I'll survive
Blood on your hands, it isn't mine
If you think I'll lay down and die
You're outta, outta, outta
You're outta your goddamn
Outta your goddamn mind

Do you only talk to hear your own voice?
Eyes rolling out my head from all the white noise
You made your bed and now lie in it
That was your choice
So why's my name still in your mouth?
Is it from guilt or paranoia?

Use me up (use me up)
'Til you've had enough (had enough)
And it never stops (never stops)
I got all this salt in the cut

Stab my back and twist it twice
Like that first time, I'll survive
Blood on your hands, it isn't mine
If you think I'll lay down and die
You're outta, outta, outta
You're outta your goddamn
Outta your goddamn mind
You're outta, outta, outta
Outta your goddamn
Outta your goddamn mind

Use me up
('Til you've had, 'til you've had)
(Had enough, enough)
Use me up (had enough, enough)
Use me up (use me up)
('Til you've had, 'til you've had enough)
(Had enough, had enough)
Use me up (use me up)
I got all this salt in the cut

Stab my back and twist it twice
Like that first time, I'll survive
Blood on your hands, it isn't mine
If you think I'll lay down and die
You're outta, outta, outta
You're outta your goddamn
Outta your goddamn mind
You're outta, outta, outta
Outta your goddamn
Outta your goddamn mind

Outta your goddamn mind
Outta your goddamn mind

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Dagger

Death by a thousand little cuts
I'm always coming back for more
Can never seem to get enough
My favorite lesson to ignore
Empathy loves a narcissist
Setting fires to every bridge
And never think of you did (did, did, did)

When it all goes wrong, maybe it's right
When it all goes wrong, maybe it's right
When it all goes wrong, maybe it's right
When it all goes, all goes wrong

Try to forgive
But can't forget
All of the words you said
A dagger to the head
It's time to fold
I'm letting go
Of all the words you said
A dagger to the head
All of the words you said
A dagger to the head

I dream of a garden
Not growing resentment
I used to want karma
But I need contentment
Been treading the water
I'm sick of the tension
I used to want karma
But I need contentment

When it all goes wrong, maybe it's right
When it all goes wrong, maybe it's right
When it all goes wrong, maybe it's right
When it all goes, all goes wrong

Try to forgive
But can't forget
All of the words you said
A dagger to the head
It's time to fold
I'm letting go
Of all the words you said
A dagger to the head
All of the words you said
A dagger to the head

Said I'm not good enough
But you love to take everything I got
Use me up to build you up
Just a stepping stone to connect your dots
You'll give everyone a show
Such a performer, they'll never know
Collect your flowers now
While you paint a smile and drag me down

A dagger to the head
It's time to fold
Hard letting go
Of all the words you said
A dagger to the head
Try to forgive
But can't forget
All of the words you said
A dagger to the head
A dagger to the head

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Nosebleeds

I saw it all in a crystal ball
The wings were wide, but in narrow halls
Writing was always on the wall
But I looked the other way

A sinking feeling inside my bones
A crowded room, but I'm all alone
It's my address, but it's not my home
So I look the other way

I'm up in the nosebleeds, I'm watching the show
I'm getting some déjà vu, an old episode
I'm up in the nosebleeds and down the seat
I see a thousand faces that look just like me

Wonder what it might be like
Just for one night
I didn't care what they all think
Wonder what it might be like
Just for one night
I didn't care what they all think

I didn't care what they all think
Just for one night
I didn't care what they all think

I was blind to the warning signs
Spilling blood, you were drinking wine
Conjure way to the finish line
Told me I was D.O.A

All the wreckage inside my head
A consequence of the words you said
It's 2020 in the retrospect
So I turn the other way

I'm up in the nosebleeds, I'm watching the show
I'm getting some déjà vu, an old episode
I'm up in the nosebleeds and down the seat
I see a thousand faces that look just like me

Wonder what it might be like
Just for one night
I didn't care what they all think
Wonder what it might be like
Just for one night
I didn't care what they all think

There's somebody trying to be somebody
Thought that I was different
Just a carbon copy lost in the illusion
If I'm winning or I'm losing
Thought that I was different
That was a delusion

Wonder what it might be like
Just for one night
I didn't care what they all think
Wonder what it might be like
Just for one night
I didn't care what they all think

I'm up in the nosebleeds, I'm watching the show
I'm getting some déjà vu, an old episode
I'm up in the nosebleeds and down the seat
I see a thousand faces that look just like me

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All The Same

I, I take my medicine
Go for my morning walks
Listening to the kids
Rehearsing Alanis
Right down the block

I stop, at all of the houses
Manicured with roses
And I think if only these little routines
Were big enough to save me

Here we go again
Close your eyes count to ten
Feel it in creeping in
Burning right through my skin

I know I'm no good at calming myself down
But I'm caught in a loop tryna turn it around

It's strange when you're trying to change
But everything stays the same
You move away can't escape
From all the things that you hate
But everything stays the same

All the same, never changes
All the same, never changes

Spinning out, confidently filled with doubt
Can't get off of the floor
Try to pick myself up
But I keep getting stuck in this revolving door

Here we go again
Close your eyes count to ten
Feel it in creeping in
Burning right through my skin

I know I'm no good at calming myself down
But I'm caught in a loop tryna turn it around

It's strange when you're trying to change
But everything stays the same
You move away can't escape
From all the things that you hate
But everything stays the

Same, same
Same, same

You move away can't escape
From all the things that you hate
But everything stays the same
Everything stays the

It's strange when you're trying to change
But everything stays the same
You move away can't escape
From all the things that you hate
But everything stays the

Same, same
Same, same

You move away can't escape
From all the things that you hate
But everything stays the same
Everything stays the

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Sideways

I'm a ticking ticking time bomb
Keep making everybody happy, f*ck what I want
I think it's time to flip the switch and turn the lights on
Go turn the lights on (you know you gotta turn the lights on)
(Lights on)

'Cause you've been tripping on your ego
And I've been bending over backwards, I'm in limbo
Slipping further away every time I get close
Keep me in the nosebleeds
You're in the front row, the front row

Play it cool while I'm mentally leaving the room
(Ahh-ah, ahh-ahh)
Never knew I was so good at concealing the truth

You got me sideways
Screaming it out on the highway
You got me running out of reasons
For me to keep believing in this
You got me sideways
Heart beating faster than lightning
And all I know is I gotta let you go
I gotta let you go
Go, oh-oh-oh-oh-ohh
And all I know is I gotta let you go
I gotta let you go

Insanity has me repeating
How many different ways can I say that I'm leaving?
'Cause romanticizing the truth is so deceiving
Should have believed you the first time
You left me bleeding, bleeding

Play it cool while I'm mentally leaving the room
(Ahh-ah, ahh-ahh)
Never knew I was so good at concealing the truth

You got me sideways
Screaming it out on the highway
You got me running out of reasons
For me to keep believing in this
You got me sideways
Heart beating faster than lightning
And all I know is I gotta let you go
I gotta let you go
Go, oh-oh-oh-oh-ohh
And all I know is I gotta let you go
I gotta let you go

Go, oh-oh-oh-oh-ohh
Let you go
Go, oh-oh-oh-oh-ohh
(Let you go)

Been tripping on your ego
And I've been bending over backwards I'm in limbo
Slipping further away every time I get close
Keep me in the nosebleeds
You're in the front row, the front row

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Trigger Pull

(What you waiting for?)
(What are you waiting for?)

I got my hands stuck, my mouth shut
Just fall in line
It's slowly killing me
Keeping this lie alive
How many more years am I gonna hide
Behind the people on my side?

Hanging on a ticket
Like I'm ever gonna win it
I've been sleeping on a dream
Am I ever gonna live it?
And I'll never beat you there
If you're pushing back the finish
And the tables won't turn
If I'm never gonna spin it
(Spin it, spin it)

(Never gonna spin it)

Trigger pull
They got you in here like an animal
The clock is ticking, whatchu waiting for?
What are you waiting for?
(Whatchu waiting for? Watchu waiting for?)
Trigger pull (trigger pull)
Go on and tell me that I'm difficult (difficult)
The clock is ticking, whatchu waiting for?
What are you waiting for?
(Whatchu waiting for? Watchu waiting for?)

I talk in circles, hold my breath
'Til I turn blue
Blaming myself day in, day out
It's déjà vu
My sister's so sick of hearing the same old loop
Said, "I'm crazy for staying with you"

Hanging on a ticket
Like I'm ever gonna win it
I've been sleeping on a dream
Am I ever gonna live it
And I'll never beat you there
If you're pushing back the finish
And the tables won't turn
If I'm never gonna spin it
(Spin it, spin it)

(And you know you gotta)

Trigger pull
They got you in here like an animal
The clock is ticking, whatchu waiting for?
What are you waiting for?
(Whatchu waiting for? Watchu waiting for?)
Trigger pull (trigger pull)
Go on and tell me that I'm difficult (difficult)
The clock is ticking, whatchu waiting for?
What are you waiting for?
(Whatchu waiting for? Watchu waiting for?)

I'm, I'm not gonna die
Waiting for the right place, the right time
Life's gonna pass you by
Waiting for the right place and right time

Trigger pull
They got you in here like an animal (animal)
The clock is ticking, whatchu waiting for?
What are you waiting for?
(Whatchu waiting for? Watchu waiting for?)
Trigger pull (trigger pull)
Go on and tell me that I'm difficult (difficult)
The clock is ticking, whatchu waiting for?
What are you waiting for?
(Whatchu waiting for? Watchu waiting for?)

Trigger pull
Difficult
The clock is ticking, what (what, what, what, what)
Whatchu waiting for, watchu waiting for?

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Too Late

Slow it down, speed it up
Not too loud, not too soft
Keep pleasing everyone else but yourself
Gotta give them a rush
Exploit the feminine touch
Today you're too much
Tomorrow you're not enough

While you make up your mind
I'll be leaving you behind

'Cause it's too late
And I'm all out of trust
Not a quitter
But I gotta give up
No, I don't need
What you're calling love
'Cause it's too late
And you're all out of luck

I know what you would call me
If I let you see my teeth
Don't waste my breath on you
'Cause talking is cheap
Curtain call, take a bow
Nothing left to save us now
A million chances couldn't turn it around

While you make up your mind
I'll be leaving you behind

'Cause it's too late
And I'm all out of trust
Not a quitter
But I gotta give up
No, I don't need
What you're calling love
'Cause it's too late
And you're all out of luck

It's too late
And I'm all out of trust
Not a quitter
But I gotta give up
No, I don't need
What you're calling love
'Cause it's too late
And you're all out of luck

Dollar signs and validation
Someone else's expectation
Stand in line for your ovation

Dollar signs and validation
Someone else's expectation
Stand in line for your ovation

'Cause it's too late
And I'm all out of trust
Not a quitter
But I gotta give up
No, I don't need
What you're calling love
'Cause it's too late
And you're all out of luck

It's too late
And I'm all out of trust
Not a quitter
But I gotta give up
No, I don't need
What you're calling love
'Cause it's too late (it's too late)
And you're all out of luck

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Silver Lining

Eyes, double vision
Tryna see what is missing
Forgive the bad decisions
'Cause bitterness is a crutch

Looking for heaven
Like some kind of adolescent
Counting up all the lessons
Feeling further out of touch

Admit you like how it hurts just a little
Happiness always felt like a riddle
Try to find silver lines
Tell everyone you're fine
But you don't know anyone who is

Never comfortable in the middle
Always high or low never level
Living on borrowed time
So you say that you're fine
But you don't know anyone who is
Is
You don't know anyone who is
Is
You don't know anyone who is

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Trip Around The Sun

Everybody says these are the best years
But everyday I wish I was further from here
Everybody says you're so honest
But if you knew the truth
I don't think you'd want it

No, I don't think you'd want it

I know all the cracks on the ceiling
Memorize everywhere the paint is peeling
Trace my body down on the carpet
Try to tell myself that I haven't lost it

(That I haven't lost it)

I don't know why I'm
Wasting my time
Trying to get it right

Another trip around the sun
And I'm still coming undone
Thought I'd have it figured out by now
I'm upside down, and I don't know where to run
Another day slipping away
But I keep putting on a face
Thought I'd have it figured out by now
I'm upside down
Screaming I'm okay

On the way down in a spiral
Nervous I've been doing for quite a while
Let me know when it's safe to come out
Losing track of how long I've been in the house

I don't know why (don't know why)
I'm wasting my time (wasting time)
Trying to get it right

Another trip around the sun
And I'm still coming undone
Thought I'd have it figured out by now
I'm upside down, and I don't know where to run
Another day slipping away
But I keep putting on a face
Thought I'd have it figured out by now
I'm upside down
Screaming I'm okay

(I'm okay)

I'm okay
I'm okay
I'm okay
I'm okay

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Flower Moon

I've been up for three nights
With my head and my heart in a fist fight
Looking up at the flower moon
Wishing you could see the view

I'm so tired, but I can never sleep
Woke up crying from another dream
I've seen this one before
You leave me at the door
Broken record watch you run away
I would never say it but I want you to stay
I see the warning signs
Ignore them every time

All I've ever known is walking the tightrope
(Tightrope, tightrope, tightrope)
(Tightrope, tightrope, tightrope)
Holding onto the illusion of control
(Control, control, control, control)

I've been up for three nights
With my head and my heart in a fist fight
Underneath the flower moon
Wishing you could see the view
Tryna keep it all together
But we both know I'm not getting any better
Lonely in a crowded room
Only one I want is you

Should I stay?
The illusion of control
Should I go?
(Control, control, control, control)

Watch the color leaving from your face
Promising it won't always be this way
I wish I could pretend
That I could trust again
One foot in and the other foot out
'Cause I'm too scared if I jump I'll drown
We've been trying not to hit the ground
But what goes up must come down

All I've ever known is walking the tightrope
(Tightrope, tightrope, tightrope)
(Tightrope, tightrope, tightrope)
Holding onto the illusion of control
(Control, control, control, control)

I've been up for three nights
With my head and my heart in a fist fight
Underneath the flower moon
Wishing you could see the view
Tryna keep it all together
But we both know I'm not getting any better
Lonely in a crowded room
Only one I want is you

Should I stay?
The illusion of control
Should I go?
(Control, control, control, control)

It's so hard being hard wired
Voices in my head conspire
Telling me you're such a liar
Spreading like wildfire
It's so hard being hard wired
Voices in my head conspire
Telling me you're such a liar
Spreading like wildfire

I've been up for three nights
With my head and my heart in a fist fight
Underneath the flower moon
Wishing you could see the view
Tryna keep it all together
But we both know I'm not getting any better
Lonely in a crowded room
Only one I want is you

I've been up for three nights
Should I stay?
Walking the tightrope
Should I stay?
(Tightrope, tightrope, tightrope)
Tryna keep it together
Should I go?
The illusion of control
Should I go?
(Control, control, control, control)

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Broken Glass

Unlearning, everything
Let it burn and start again
Nothing left for me to prove
It's not something I'm used to

When did you forget to have fun?
(Forget to have fun)
Grow up so fast when you're young
(When you're young)
Lose yourself tryna be someone
For everyone

Like a thief in the night
Having stolen what's mine
Haven't wasted my time on too many tries
I'm so sick of the past
Break my neck looking back
And I can't keep on dancing on broken glass

Can't keep on dancing on broken glass
On broken glass
Can't keep on dancing on broken glass
On broken glass

Carousel keeps spinning
I'm throwing caution to the wind
Nothing left for me to lose
I did my best and I paid my dues

When did you forget to have fun?
(Forget to have fun)
Grow up so fast when you're young
(When you're young)
Lose yourself tryna be someone
For everyone

Like a thief in the night
Having stolen what's mine
Haven't wasted my time on too many tries
I'm so sick of the past
Break my neck looking back
And I can't keep on dancing on broken glass

Can't keep on dancing on broken glass
On broken glass
Can't keep on dancing on broken glass
On broken glass

Like a thief in the night
Having stolen what's mine
Haven't wasted my time on too many tries
I'm so sick of the past
Break my neck looking back
And I can't keep on dancing on broken glass

When did you forget to have fun?
Grow up so fast when you're young
Lose yourself tryna be someone
For everyone

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Other Side

Pull me into the game
Sucker punch to the face
Borrowed time I can't waste
Bad habits are hard to change
So hard to change
So hard to

Write it out on the page
Take a walk, medicate
Sadness is quiet rage
Good habits are hard to make
So hard to make
So hard to

Watching from the sidelines
Wishing I was on the other side

Watching from the sidelines
(Watching from the)
Wishing I was on the other side
Watching from the sidelines
(Watching from the)
Wishing I was on the other side

Sidelines
Other side

And I know, and I know
I've been here before
But I keep coming back
Always looking for more
Of the same disfunction
Reenact destruction

I don't wanna be cynical
(Cynical)
Can't tell if it's the chemicals
(Chemicals)
The imbalance is so typical
Is so typical, need a miracle

Watching from the sidelines
(Watching from the)
Wishing I was on the other side
Watching from the sidelines
(Watching from the)
Wishing I was on the other side

Sidelines
Other side

What you want is what you have
Don't look forward and don't look back
What you want is what you have
Don't look forward and don't look back
(Sidelines)
(Little house, lemon tree) what you want is what you have
(I got everything I need) don't look forward and don't look back
(Other side)
(Picket fence the irony) what you want is what you have
I got everything I need

Watching from the sidelines
(Watching from the)
Wishing I was on the other side
Watching from the sidelines
(Watching from the)
Wishing I was on the other side

Watching from the sidelines
(Watching from the)
Wishing I was on the other side
Watching from the sidelines
(Watching from the)
Wishing I was on the other side

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End Of My Rope

Every headline makes me sick
Waking up to the apocalypse
God, I hate when every day's the same
Need to escape, do you know a place?

Grab my body, twist it try to break the chain
I've been living in a game that I don't wanna play
God, I hate when every day's the same
Need to escape, do you know a place?

When you ask yourself, "What does it mean
To believe in something that no one else can see?"
When you find yourself just out of reach
Step into the light and go dance yourself free

I wanna go where the pressure cannot follow
(Ahh-ah-ah-ah, ahh-ah-ah-ah)
Move out the way gimme space 'cause I'm losing control
(Ahh-ah-ah-ah, ahh-ah-ah-ah)
I've been hyperventilating
Staying patient at the end of my rope
(Ahh-ah-ah-ah) I'm at the end of my rope

See the levels start to rise
Time to kick it into overdrive
I'm not buying what you're trying to sell
You play the angel, taking me to hell

Grab my body, twist it try to break the chain
I've been living in a game that I don't wanna play
God, I hate but I'm on my way
Need to escape, think I know a place

When you ask yourself, "What does it mean
To believe in something that no one else can see?"
When you find yourself just out of reach
Step into the light and go dance yourself free

Dance, dance, dance, dance yourself free
Dance, dance, dance, dance yourself free
Dance, dance, dance, dance yourself free
Dance, dance, dance, dance yourself free

I wanna go where the pressure cannot follow
(Ahh-ah-ah-ah, ahh-ah-ah-ah)
Move out the way gimme space 'cause I'm losing control
(Ahh-ah-ah-ah, ahh-ah-ah-ah)
I've been hyperventilating
Staying patient at the end of my rope
(Ahh-ah-ah-ah, ah-ah, ahh-ah-ah-ah)
I wanna go where the pressure cannot follow
(Ahh-ah-ah-ah, ahh-ah-ah-ah)
I'm at the end of my rope

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Ultraviolet

Information tidal wave
Gotta put the phone away
And look up at this pretty place
But bad habits are hard to break
Seeing everyone get what I want
Wondering if I did something wrong
And I know I'm not the only one
Who's dizzy from comparison

And I know it's not good, it's unhealthy
But everyone here looks so lovely
Yeah, self-deprecation is ugly
I'm a moth to the flame, so don't judge me
'Cause I'm already doing it
Worse than I want to admit
Constantly excusing it
I'm the one who's fueling it
Addict and I gotta quit
Before this shit is permanent
None of this is elegant
Heavy and it's delicate
And I'm so good at hiding it
Ultraviolet

Been out of my body since I was a kid
I did a lot of things I wish I never did
When you're fifteen years old and emancipated
Fifteen years later, still tryna forgive

And I know it's not good, it's unhealthy
But everyone here looks so lovely
Yeah, self-deprecation is ugly
I'm a moth to the flame, so don't judge me
'Cause I'm already doing it
Worse than I want to admit
Constantly excusing it
I'm the one who's fueling it
Addict and I gotta quit
Before this shit is permanent
None of this is elegant
Heavy and it's delicate
And I'm so good at hiding it
Ultraviolet

Ultraviolet (ultraviolet)
Ultraviolet (ultraviolet)
Ultraviolet (ultraviolet)
Ultraviolet (ultraviolet)

Information tidal wave
Gotta put the phone away
And look up at this pretty place
God, it's such a pretty place