I wouldn't call it a waste of time
I would do whatever it takes to try
To find inner peace and make it mine
Compete to find my peace of mind
Inside I tried, Inside I tried
To be someone who already died
I couldn't find me if I couldn't be seen
Couldn't be free if I couldn't believe
In the reason I would do this wasn't for the music
Just for the feeling of retribution
Justice for no one's conclusion
Just this one thing made me lose it
No one ever cared and I always f*cking knew it
But I wanted to make them care
Never really in it for me
Jealous of everywhere
Everything I can see
I need to breathe serenity
Unfazed of what's ahead of me
Unsafe to leave this legacy
For all my many enemies
Are they enemies to my dream
Or enemies in my head
I don't think they remember me
So why would they repent this
Who's to blame here other than me again shit
Yeah other than me again that's it I'm
Biding time
Until I am reminded
Of why I lie
To myself about my crimes
It's quiet nights
That I can't escape from
Thinking the worse but it's nothing new
Thinking I should stop holding onto this but maybe I'm meant to
This world didn't kill my dream
It was my mentality
It was my own fault I would never call my friends or family
About the things that went wrong
Like what is there to say
I'll just put it in a song and everything will be ok
I did it all right for all the wrong reasons
Acting alright when my heart kept bleeding
Killing on sight never took time healing
Dreams don't die for no goddamn reason
All the fake friends they changing like seasons
All the snakes left me lonesome I'm seeing
A new light just gotta believe in
A new life beyond I feel it
The 9-5 almost took me out made me another machine
Adults bring you down but kids they believe
We can learn from them we don't gotta be
Stuck in this loop that no one ever really sees
Where's your sense of wonder somewhere underneath the person you perceive
Covers up the someone you could really be
Don't worry about the judge of others they could never see
We're not here to follow sheep
We're here to follow dreams I'm
Biding time
Until I am reminded
Of why I lie
To myself about my crimes
It's quiet nights
That I can't escape from
Thinking the worse but it's nothing new
Thinking I should stop holding onto this but maybe I'm meant to