Thinkin' 'bout life and growin' up began to scarin' me
I swear to God this shit for therapy
I call up Buck told him that I needed somethin' to vent
Call up Johnny just to see if they be cuttin' the checks
I'm tryna tell ya that we blowin' up this year
No more conversation I be stackin' my chips here
I been tryna get on and they all fallin' off though
It's not a coincidence I got what they want though
And I was at the bar just drinkin'
Thoughts keep creepin'
Phone turned off can't reach me
Tryna be optimistic but look at all the schemin'
Push me to the limit I promise I'll make it even
And I remember sittin' in my bedroom in Cleveland
Thinkin' this'll be the one to let me break through the ceiling
Now they know about us
Crazy that I used to worry 'bout that
5 years later now I got The Land on my back
Yeah
We on our way up
If they don't see it then they just a mothaf*ckin' hater
Pullin' up in the same whips that Drizzy in
F*ckin' with centerfold bitches I'll never hit again
Old girls said I was selfish
Not denyin' I wasn't but obviously they didn't see my potential
I just had the bigger picture in mind
The fame and riches in mind
They bitter 'cuz I'm on a whole 'nother level
Yeah
I feel the beat and I get sentimental
Shout the labels that ain't never got f*ckin' memo
I remember seeing homies turn to sellin' pills
Gettin' caught up in it just to make a couple bills
My struggle ain't your struggle
But your struggle ain't mine there's always beauty to find
And my parents split up when I started out grade nine
Down to nickels and pennies I had to make it my time
And dog I never looked back got it poppin' though
How'd I turn a rap to a mothaf*ckin' pot of gold
Now she all attached look baby girl I gotta go
I just blew a stack on some shit that I ain't proud of though
I don't know
I'm just takin' it one step at a time
I give all of you my story I'm just makin' it rhyme
Plottin' every move I got too many mils on the line
I got sick of f*ckin' waitin' now I'm takin' what's mine
Yeah
Why do I feel like I'm the only one who get me
Why do I feel like everybody filled with envy
Or they just hang around me so they feel like they entitled to somethin'
When I make it they can they say they knew me when I was nothin'
I don't know I never thought I'd be paranoid
Hardly ever home I guess it come with the territory
Liquor gets poured then we talk about real shit
Like how I'm supposed handle all the pressure I deal with
I needed that
I show 'em love and I ain't never really see it back
From now on I'm goin' right for they throats
Y'all ain't really doin' shit but still you doin' the most
I can't believe all the shit I been seein'
Know I said it before if there ain't six zeros ain't no agreement
She complainin' sayin' I don't make time for her
I don't even have enough time for making time for her
Got a Suburban right in front of the club
Hoppin' in that mothaf*cka' thinkin' what I've become
All my verses are updates
I'm always up late
These days I don't go against what my gut say
I can't be around snakes checkin' the grass
I can never be around girls who don't understand
I been prayin' for some shit and now he gotta be hearin' me
'Cuz what I'm supposed to do in life is finally clear to me
I went from bein' buddy buddy to rappers fearin' me
I went from bein' Vic into a starboy apparently
And I don't know the last time I didn't have no stress
But I don't know the last time I didn't see no checks
I been mixin' all night it's been too strong
I don't ever f*ckin' miss man I been too on
Y'all could never bring me back nah I been too gone
Had to really come with it you know it's been too long
For real