Lunchtime - Alive !Living Lyrics

I'm alive
I've been here (For) some time
And absent, all the same
Tired and listless
I'm surprised how you remember me
We spend two years
Not knowing eachother
Never talking
Just periscopes for friends
Ignore this guy, he's not me
He pretends to be what I need
Acts satisfied, though we see
We didn't act, we didn't do anything!
Unwashed, unfed, lacking sleep
(Holed up. burnt out)
Sick and stumbling off my feet
(Holed up, worthless, burnt out)
I did not try
Don't pity me
Why should I act, when I don't want anything?
Oh
It's sad: we're both tired of me
And I can't do anything fast to put our minds at ease
Hands tied together by my complacency
Legs bound by apathy
I spout apologies
But can I follow though and live responsibly?
I'm driven by my fear
You wanted out of here
I wanted yesteryear
Can I make my dreams appear?
Or will I drag my feed while you leave me here?
I'm alive
But I've been stuck for some time
Drive absent
I'm not the same
Sick and tired of my head