How come you're so optimistic?
You'll say I must find joy
I've tried I must've missed him
Good people struggling seems even angles have they demons
I'm leaning toward believing all demons portrayed as angels
You'll see duality in that
A angle that I'm taking hope I find spirituality in that
So easy for me to slip in a spiral without control there go my thoughts again
Maybe I should keep them on a leach but does that mean I'm stuffing my pain if I box them in?
Consciousness fading
Life is coming at me in a slideshow
Looping infinitely where did time go?
Drifting off again, I ask God how come I won't float?
How come I drown?
He let Peter walk on water how come I can't now?
How come I can't?
How come I'm yet to find my harmony?
Trying to compromise these thoughts of mind to find a balance for us takes a lot of me
But still I give you that part of me part of me part of me
So crucial like a artery
That may not be the right thing to do but it's what was taught to me
Avoiding confrontation a art to me
The word peace became a God to me
I can't live like this all my life
I can't lay down what's all inside
I've held on this long it's only right
It's mine
It's mine
I miss the days when you and I were vibrant
But nowadays we're plagued by the same old tyrant
I remember that I'd chant the Lord's name
So disciplined I was
But now my mind plants insecurities like a seed to make a tree ripe with doubt
No doubt I lost my mind
Age is the cost of time
And it's a price I'm afraid I can't afford
Hopefully eternity after death paid it for me
At least that's what I believe
To find a means
On why we here
A comfort
Something to override the fear
Define the fear?
A fear Devine is not sincere
A lie on why we here
Negative thinker by nature I been learning how to deal with it
Got everything I need plus some things and I'm still tripping
I don't know how to exist without some sort of competition
Oftentimes with myself
Borderline I need help
Life get too peaceful I trick myself into thinking something ain't right
Rush into fight or flight
It might just have a hold me
I'm drowning God rescue me please
How come I'm yet to find my harmony?
Trying to compromise these thoughts of mind to find a balance for us takes a lot of me
But still I give you that part of me part of me part of me
So crucial it's like a artery
That may not be the right thing to do but it's what was taught to me
Avoiding confrontation a art to me
The word peace became a God to me
I can't live like this all my life
I can't lay down what's all inside
I've held on this long it's only right
It's mine
It's mine
I know what a seed can turn into
Water surrounds me I know I know
I know what a seed can turn into
Water surrounds me I know I know
I know what a seed can turn into
Water surrounds me I know I know