Lovelorn - Untitled Lyrics

I'm bilingual in bullshit imma die to the fullest
Play with her hair nah I pull it making myself look foolish
Yu cunts dream while we do it cuts start to bleed now it's poolin
I stay hidden motherf*cker you can't watch my movements
I'm Laura croftin' these ruins f*ck games sleep what I'm losin
I disappear no illusion guess I reside in delusion
If I'm real god yu can come f*ckin prove it
I rip the seal off sedatives is the solution
Got no need for excuses my grip on everything loosens
Except her throat I like to sin her inner thighs I'm bruisin
It's nirvana I'm pursuing trynna grasp at what's lucent
From myself I am truant in these walls I find amusement
As the figure runs its finger down the skin of my arm
Causing harm blood drips out but the manic makes me calm
In my palm lies a letter dedicated to my mum
With the details of my explicit self harm
Nothin external, I'm sprintin' through these hurdles
My feet start to wear as I'm running in circles
Immerse myself in the feeling of fire
I battle addiction content my desire

I don't miss you I'm a liar I wanna kiss yu make me higher
Drain your blood a vampire feel like Saba not no fighter
Hope they kill me f*ck a martyr imma useless motherf*cker
Make me question why I bother, I'll luv yu like no other

I see yu rap but I ain't heard shit, nah
Yu ain't never seen a demon like this, yuh
I got day ones that went n f*ckin switched, up
Spit some pissed off shit cuz I am pissed, off
Think I give, a f*ck, till my wrists, are cut
Catch me in, the cut, yu know I been, with drugs
Little bitch, we, don't, back, down, said the devilmen
The f*ck I keep hearing these sounds, can't stop listening
Imprints where I fell, so many stories to tell
It's kinda scary to think you saw me of my way down that well
I get gory detail, talkin shit like oh well
Who the f*ck am I addressing think I'm seein myself
Imma dead body rotting but I'm still seein' myself
Stuck repeating myself, caught retreating from help
I'm still guessin who'd tell, f*ck expression of self
Motherf*cker I was drownin' in your perception of hell, f*ck