Lou - still trying.. Lyrics

Running around my mind, got me bitin' my nails
I loving on you is like standin' on nails
When I told you I loved you, I thought you could tell
Now I'm here lookin' funny like David Chappelle
I think that I've been impaled in my heart, lil' baby
Wanna take it all back to the start, lil' baby
Then you crashed in my mind like a cart, lil' baby
Now I'm in here, I'm fallin' apart, lil' baby
Do you get what I'm doin'?
Told you I'm fallin' in love I'm perusing
The things that I thought we could be in the future
Now I'm out here just like Future
Dissin' the women I knew in my past
Buildin' up hate for the things you once had
I keep tellin' myself that I wasn't that bad
Baby, who am I kiddin'?
The man that I see in the mirror is the spitting image of everything that I was missing
Want to say I was hurt when you started to diss me
Say I was hurt when you said you didn't miss me
Say I was hurt when you took all the feelings we had and you threw them away like a Frisbee
I was really hurt when she said she was single
I'm still in love with you
Got me goin' crazy thinkin' bout your magnitude
Now it feels like something's missing like I chipped a tooth
But the only thing that's missing is me bein' with you
Man, what I loved you, I didn't see it myself
Been itching for fixin' love's like an addiction that I couldn't beat with the hand that was dealt
But I keep tryin', keep tryin', keep tryin
To be better than the man you said that you knew
All the highs and goodbyes, then the love and the lies
Tell myself I was doin' it all for you
It was all for me, but I couldn't see
And it got to a point that you couldn't even sleep
And it got to a point where you wanted to leave
But I couldn't believe you apart from me
But I'm still tryin', still tryin', still tryin