hurt/heard a lot Video (MV)

I ain't cry but that shit hurt a lot
Hockey jersey with the Birkenstocks
Depressed f*ck, I deserve to rot
Inside the crib, I hate leavin', think I may even
Be gettin' worse mentally, it's gettin' out of hand
Never did my schoolwork, I used to pay this kid from Pakistan
Last week, I watched the Panthers beat the Avalanche
I'm not that same charismatic man I used to be
It's really hard when you not internet
I hide my face behind these Oakleys and a fitted hat
My girl mad, we can't decide where to have dinner at
When I get hot, I cut my hair like where the scissors at
Winner slash bum
It's been a bad month
It's all bad for hypochondriacs
Overthinkin' every feelin' that come
You think you got it, you ain't really have none

It don't come easy, in life you have to work
Either you want to be the shark of the ocean
Or the fish of the ocean
Either you work hard for it
Or you don't work hard for it
In between I don't care and I care too much
In between I don't care and I care too much

I ain't really understand it, but I heard a lot
I've been waitin' on the words to stop
I live my life in a nervous shock
I'm only comfortable in certain spots, not many
I like a girl who not friendly
My body guard like Mark Henry
I've been writin' for years, still that book of ideas is not empty
Take it as far as God let me
Seen a lot through these green eyes
Sense of hope whenever sleeve rhymes
It's kinda crazy, spittin' pain make em relate
Instead of break and make em feel mine
Cause I'm not tryna hurt nobody, tryna heal minds
Maybe in the process I could heal mine
Won't get my hopes up, some people meant to play
Some people coach because they know stuff
Don't look at me too close up
Keep on doin' what you supposed to

In between I don't care and I care too much
In between I don't care and I care too much