Lonely Enclave - Black Cracks Lyrics

I tried to focus on my friends, but you were just too damn distracting
My mind said go full alpha mode, but my confidence was lacking
To what extent are you submerged, cause I'm more than knee deep in you
In fact I'd say I'm drowning, could you please come to my rescue

Black cracks permeate the white light, and I'm horrified
I know that we don't talk the way we used to

A sweet but twisted lullaby that I refuse to fall asleep to
The revelation hit me hard when I knew I had to give on you
But your new path is intriguing, and I'd like to get to know him
Though I know if I pursue that goal, I'm gonna sink instead of swim

Black cracks permeate the white light, and I'm horrified
I know that I don't smile the way I used to

I tell myself we could be friends
Just friends, and nothing more
But the back part of my mind complains because it isn't like before
Now that I've seen you smile, you've given something back to me
God, I'm so selfish asking for another dose of dopamine

Black cracks permeate the white light, and I'm horrified
I know that we don't talk the way we used to
Black cracks permeate the white light, but Kate, I still love you
Why can't I give you up the way I want to?