Look
Most of the time, I use to sing
But this time, that's something really personal for me
So I'mma just let it speak
Aye, aye
Thats just another one
Another time I'm falling by my own
Right now I'm feelin so down
But just leave me alone
I thought It would stop, thought that I was free
Feelin like deception ain't done with me
I should tell myself life's unfair
Or maybe it's just the season
I gotta get a learning from this nightmare
Cus everything happens for a reason
I'm givin too much too fast
Is that why it never last?
And lately I've been feelin numb
Always down stuck in the past
Why ? why can't I just be happy with someone I feel good with? Never ever
Is that a curse that is stuck on me cus that is how it feels
But I can't get to open my eyes cus that shit real
And even when everything is goin well
The situation still can fall appart
And these moments feel like a hell
And every single time it's a new fracture in my heart
I used to need attention, affection
That was something I required
Nowadays I'm just not feelin it
Now I'm like an empty soul, without feelings in it
Why do I feel like life want me to suffer?
I can't get to see the point
Is that karma, punishing me for my wrong acts? Or is it my predetermined path?
You say that you understand
All this shit I'm goin through
But you could never feel the pain
When happiness doesn't seem to be for you
And over and over again
Something f*cks everything up
And every time I'm feeling weak for easing all this Pain and fall back in drugs
When I'm lookin around me
I see happiness and love
Relations on long term
And I'm thinkin while I smoke another blunt
Why can't I have this for once?
Why can't I have this for once?
But even through the pain I can see the matter
Every single moment leads you to the better
And every single girl taught me something
Things that I could use for the days coming
So why you actin like I don't exist?
Is it your way to show me that you resist?
But if I'm down for you, girl you'll better trust me
I won't never cause you bad, or let you lonely
But if you changed your mind, just know that it's okay
Just know that I won't blame you, if you take another way
Don't worry for me if again I'm alone
Cus that would just be another one