Figure It Out Video (MV)

I'm trying to figure it out
Lost in the world trying to find myself
I'm trying to figure it out
Do I do it for myself or the fame and the clout
I'm trying to figure it out
By myself I don't want no help
I'm trying to figure it out
Lost in the world trying to find myself

Why do I feel like this
Why the f*ck do I feel like a pile of shit
Why the f*ck am I so depressed
And why the f*ck can't I see that i'm loved and blessed
I can't blame no one else
Because they all tried to help with my mental health
But stupid me f*cked myself
Because I thought I could do it all by myself
I don't want no help
I don't know where to go
I'm blind to growth and can't find the road
But I don't want no one to know
That I hate myself and i'm so alone
But that's just how it is
I bottle it up
And then throw a fit
I can't even blame no one else
This is my fault
I blame myself

I'm trying to figure it out
Lost in the world trying to find myself
I'm trying to figure it out
Do I do it for myself or the fame and the clout
I'm trying to figure it out
By myself I don't want no help
I'm trying to figure it out
Lost in the world trying to find myself

I am just so full of rage
I am so angry I cannot explain
I just feel like i'm losing my mind
And these demons inside
Just cannot be tamed
I feel a bit tense and stressed
While lying in bed
With these thoughts in my head
Why the f*ck when I wake up
F*ck
Am I kind of sad that i'm not dead
This is getting quite serious
I used to laugh about it
It's hilarious
I used to think this was all a phase
And it would all fade away
In a couple of days
Damn look at me now
If my moms looking down
Do you think that she's proud
Of her little boy who hates himself
I'm so alone
Mom I need you now

I'm trying to figure it out
Lost in the world trying to find myself
I'm trying to figure it out
Do I do it for myself or the fame and the clout
I'm trying to figure it out
By myself I don't want no help
I'm trying to figure it out
Lost in the world trying to find myself

I'm so alone
Feels like i'm stuck in this scary world
All by myself
I'm drowning
I need help

I'm trying to figure it out
Lost in the world trying to find myself
I'm trying to figure it out
Lost in the world trying to find myself
I'm trying to figure it out
Do I do it for myself or the fame and the clout
I'm trying to figure it out
By myself I don't want no help
I'm trying to figure it out
Lost in the world trying to find myself
I'm trying to figure it out
Lost in the world trying to find myself
I'm trying to figure it out
Do I do it for myself or the fame and the clout
I'm trying to figure it out
By myself I don't want no help
I'm trying to figure it out
Lost in the world trying to find myself