Lilvatoloco - Feelings Lyrics

I haven't been myself lately I can't even sleep
I'm trynna move on but the pain is just too f*cking deep
I'm trynna get up but somehow I can't feel my feet
The enemy's myself and I'm too hard to f*cking beat
I try to keep my word but I can't stand it
No one gets my mind sometimes I can't understand it
Love is just a word I'm trynna put this all behind it
They ask me for my purpose you know I can't even find it
Tell me all my sins cuss I'm tired of the pain
I drink to numb myself but i end up cutting my veins
I am such a failure and its hard proving my brain
That I ain't such a mess
People think I'm blessed
I don't even know what's next
Yea
I reminisce thinking bout you often
Thinking bout that pretty smile that made me soften
But now its gone and my heart is turning rotten
All that's left to do is to lay me in a coffin

The nights are cold
The day's no longer have a meaning
Faith became a word that isn't worth believing
Close my eyes cuss I'm tired of what I'm seeing
You walking away that shit killing all my feelings
And I'm done
I'll pack my shit and go
No point if I stay you didn't care when I was low
You could've been right here now you're gonna see me see me glow
Turn into that person that you never got to know
Show me what I've done
God take me to my path
Every time I miss a step people turn around and laugh
Now they're gonna see me shine
Yes I'm aiming for the sky
Yes I'm aiming for the stars yet people ask me why
Like why
Have you ever seen your mother cry
Thinking bout you're future wondering if its alright
I might dress in black but I'm looking for light
Fighting of my demons yes I do this every night