Lil Xtra - Sometimes Lyrics

Catch me in the back with my head down
I'm just gonna fade to the background
I know that I'm awkward
Laugh at the wrong jokes, say all the wrong words
I want to die in the front seat
It feels like for the last few months we
Just Can't get it right, no love for life
Suicide on my mind every night
Cause I don't understand my place
What's the point in being real when the world's so fake
How many motherf*cking pills does it take before my heart shuts down and my lifeline breaks
I haven't seen a soul in three weeks
Cause I haven't left my bed, and I never even sleep
Lost 20 pounds, I don't want to f*cking eat
I just want to find some peace, oh god please

It's raining in the morning
It's raining in the evening
Raining when I go to bed
40 days and 40 nights
Nothing's gonna be alright
Till I finally rest my head
Sometimes I wish I was dead

Finger to the back of my throat now
Again and again get it all out
I know I'm impatient, f*cked it all up again, because I stay so anxious
I need something to die for
I can't put this life together like the triforce
I need a little wisdom, courage and power
So I'm puffing level up every hour
Cause I don't even know what's real
Either feel like shit or I just don't feel
How many bottles left on my bill
Before I leave this scene and i chase these pills
For real what's going on
You said it's all right that it's all wrong
But I'll be okay just as long
As my spirit lives on through these songs but

It's raining in the morning
It's raining in the evening
Raining when I go to bed
40 Days and 40 nights
Nothing's gonna be alright
Till I finally rest my head
Sometimes I wish I was dead
Sometimes I wish I was dead

We blow away like the leaves
You thought you heard, misquoted
"I think I know what it means"
Guess I must've misspoken

I rode the train today
Forgot how much I hate tight spaces
I hope it takes me far away
I hope you know that I'm off to the races, I'm off to the races