Lil Rose - Wish List Lyrics

(Lil Rose, you so wavy)
All I want for Christmas
Is friends that are loyal, or maybe band-aids for my weakened soul
A shorty at my side for every time that I been feeling low
Or some money in the bank, maybe I'm needy though
Santa where you been at all my life, nigga? I need to know
Did Rudolph's light burn out, maybe you been lost man
My wish list been getting way longer for so long man
Maybe you ain't been getting all of my letters
Maybe I been on your naughty list, tell me what wrong is man
Got a lot of- got a lot of shit still on my wish list
Where you at, where you at, you coming back for Christmas?
Drugs been in my stocking for years 'cause all I get's prescriptions
It's no f*cking wonder why I fall back to addiction
Feeling pain no reason, sometimes this shit just gets to me
I wish the pain would go away but Santa never visits me
Wish someone would ask what's wrong and understand my history
Where's God when you need him most? Don't know
That shit's a mystery
I wish I could have diamond watches, chains and fame to finally have
Wishing when I rid my demons they won't ever find my ass
Wish I had the hoes and glamour, not these hoes that try my ass
I wish I didn't have to be addicted, got me dying fast
I'm dying fast, I'm dying fast, I don't know where I'm going
Feel like no one know how hard I try, I'm crashing like the ocean
I want Santa to take away the feeling that all life is hopeless
Especially when I'm happy but the liquor still keeping me choking
Met a girl named CaraRose
Felt like she gon' be the one
Spent half a rack to buy a gift
And told her I ain't needed one
Made sure that she knew I cared
I ain't want her feeling lonely
Ain't ask for shit in return 'cause all I really need is love
Lil' bro bout to have a kid
He even getting married too
That shit made me happy as f*ck
But it's kinda scary too
And not 'cause he been happy but the fact that he is leaving soon
The only nigga making me happy soon as I need this dude
Said I got a place to say
And that he'd do all he could do
And that I won't be myself
I had some plans to leave for school
There shouldn't be shit bothering me
But wish I could feel it's true
Sometimes I feel like Satan's on my shoulder, sometimes Jesus too
Santa, all I want this year is love from all my fallen friends
They angels now, it's painful now and ain't nobody calling yet
All I want is someone calling up my phone to check on me
And people that won't ever close the door or lose respect for me
Maybe I been asking too much
Maybe it's karma 'cause I been laughing too much
Maybe it's 'cause my feet always be dragging so much
Maybe it's 'cause roses burn to ashes so much
Life is f*cked up 'cause I'm still on your naughty list
Niggas getting mad at me 'cause I haven't been dropping shit
But I been too depressed to write, I'm overwhelmed by all this shit
Maybe it's a sign for me to tie the knot and call it quits
Noose around my neck it's getting tighter
Roses burning in the back yard, it kindles in the fire
Trying to ask forgiveness for my sins, pastor called me a liar
I can get 17 hours of sleep and I'll still be tired
Never been so- Never been so f*cked up in the head even when sober
Now December getting closer and the weather getting colder
Santa, tell me how you do it
How you always got that sack around your back
'Cause I suck at carrying weight up on my shoulder
Shit is real, shit is real
Santa still ain't hit me back
Karma's such a bitch, nigga
Why she trying to get me back?
All I want for Christmas is a present right under my tree that I can open when I wake up
Can you just do that for me?