Lil JJ Reynolds - Saying Goodbye Lyrics

Define lunatic and tell me what you get out of it
If sadness is the first, I'll be the first to speak bout it
It's a painful experience with deadly side effects
I show a perfect fake smile and proceed to hide the rest
Behind the stress is the devil, controlling how it plays out
In the skull of a vulnerable person, the rage is out
It's too late to stop his tactics, the pressure is on
The body's weak from the depression, depression is strong
Hanging on draws me closer to the ledge, to fall
When on the edge, you get no messages, support, or phone calls
No love, so what's left is to turn to the drugs
Reaching out, I get ignored, so why should I budge?
Or even bother to chat, when I don't even interact?
It's a challenge to relax, cause I'm ready to snap
Suicide on the count of three, after three, I'm gonna die
I'm saying goodbye
Saying goodbye
Saying goodbye
Saying goodbye
Saying goodbye
Saying goodbye
Saying goodbye
Saying goodbye
I'm the man that they can't save
Cutting people off, along with myself with a razor blade
Can't sleep, I'm wide awake, feeling highly paranoid
All I have is the music, writing lyrics to fill the void
The public, I can't avoid, cause there's people everywhere
In my mirror are random faces, too many stares
It's obvious I'm an oddball and socially awkward
I'm hard to figure out like I'm supposed to be a crossword
I say I'm good from everything I muster with
Truth is, no-one can help me from what I suffer with
I don't blame 'em for leaving from my aggression
I lost my mind, lost sight, and lost direction
No clue on where to go, I'm thinking, "six feet under"
Will anybody miss me when I'm gone?, I wonder
Regardless, this life goes on and goes by
On that note, I'm saying goodbye
Saying goodbye
Saying goodbye
Saying goodbye
Saying goodbye
Saying goodbye
Saying goodbye
Saying goodbye
These ups and downs got me feeling strangled
Suffocated in my feelings, how much more can I handle?
My corneas are red, all I see is evilness
Evilness within myself, for years, I see no fix
Be so pissed, it takes eternal for my anger to die down
I'm cutting but no blood, grabbed a blade, let's try now
I'll squirt out so much blood like a spewing water hose
It's a bigger example of me losing more control
I'm saying goodbye
Saying goodbye
Saying goodbye
Saying goodbye
Saying goodbye
Saying goodbye
Saying goodbye
Saying goodbye