M.O.A.A. Video (MV)

Inside the Mind, the Mind. Inside, the

Negative thoughts, ruminating
They're blossoming, they take the reigns
I cannot take it, they're fumigating
Please, someone, come save me. I'm suffocating
The oxygen sucked out of me, my soul burnt to fire
Until I'm uninspired, I wish I could retire
Just retreat into darkness for a while
Shit, man. I'm way too tired
Contemplating, no illuminating
Has this always been my fate
Will there come a point when it's truly too late
I'm flirting with death, literally
These thoughts getting harder and harder to push aside
They're gaining momentum, and now they're moving in stride
While I'm stuck here wondering how and why, I begin to cry
'Cause here's what's on my mind

Inside the Mind, The Mind of an Addict
Mind, body, spirit have it
Demon inside, hand-crafted
My soul, he wants to grab it
Acknowledge what he's after
Hope together we'll get past it
Fill the voids left behind with laughter
Preserve my mind, the Mind of an Addict

I'm alright, yeah I'm alright
Even though I know that's a lie
Give me time; just give me time
I think I'm getting by just fine
Every time that I tell myself I'm fine just so that I can hear it
Every time I that say it, I-Ronically begin to feel more weary
These unspoken lyrics are more truthful in spirit
What I hear inside, it ain't a lie, I just fear it
Day by day, I keep doin' the same thing
Thinkin' things will somehow magically change
Livin' in the shadow takes a toll on me
That I cannot handle
I allow it to alter my reality
Into the upside down
Tomato, TomAto, if not today, then maybe tomorrow
These are the words that I'll eventually swallow
As I became more and more hollow

Inside the Mind, The Mind of an Addict
Mind, body, spirit have it
Demon inside, hand-crafted
My soul, he wants to grab it
Acknowledge what he's after
Hope together we'll get past it
Fill the voids left behind with laughter
Preserve my mind, the Mind of an Addict

It happened so abruptly, corrupted, abducted
The devil stole my soul, then he done went and f*cked it
Was it just unlucky, or did I truly want it
Has this curse become me, or can I overcome it
The devil is the creditor and I am the debtor
I'm negligible, and he's the almighty lender
My soul is his collateral
And he will win every time; this is factual
Will I ever be able to think the things that I thought
Or do what I did, or seek what I sought, or bring to the table what I brought
'Cause I know that deep down, I ain't completely lost
I'm just broken down into tiny shards, or, in similar terms, distraught
I was so shameful that I became hateful as my back-fall
Pain justifies my anxiety, no sobriety, following The Path wrong
I'm at rock bottom with my demons and my sins
Hopefully this is the place to build upon
But then what; I'm scared of the new beginning
'Cause this is what usually gets me caught
I barely remember the times that I fought for what I believed in
But, maybe I still can
I know I can make good of all my sins
I can feel it comin' back, slowly; it's within
I didn't come this far just to come this far
And learn what I've learned for it to not be taught
Along the roller coaster, on the twisted airplane, the journey speaks
For my pain

Inside the Mind, my Mind
The Mind, my Mind
Inside my Mind, the Mind
Inside the Mind
The Mind of an Addict
Mind, body, spirit have it
Demon inside, hand-crafted
My soul, he wants to grab it
Acknowledge what he's after
Know together we'll get past it
And lastly
Never be too kind to habits

It takes an end to realize what I've had all along
What was lost in the eye of the storm
But now, my search for The Path is not gone
Where one road is torn, another is born
Once you're at peace with yourself
No one can take your wealth
You'll live a good life with good health
And you'll be the example of the tale to tell

But I still got a little ways to go
Tag along, sing the song, and feel the flow