Doze Days Video (MV)

These days, I do what I want
'Cause I think I can
'Cause I think I can
I don't think anything through
I fail to see the consequence
In this very instance
I just wanna feel good again
Mind and my body feel separate
My soul is slowly exiting
I've been numbing everything with Klonopin and
Lidocaine and Vicodin
I don't even have to think, I don't even know the day
What a great feelin'
I wish I could be one with my spirit
But all I hear are demons haulin' for it
They're calling me, and I'm fallin' for it
I'm too late; I can't compete

I'm a sucker for all things fun
Every time I go under I wonder what went wrong
I love to give in to any temptation
Any form of stimulation in my brain and I'm done

Cocaine, in the membrane, in the membrane, in the membrane
Co-caine, in the membrane, in the membrane, in the membrane
It's that cocaine, in the membrane, in the membrane, in, the membrane
The dopamine man gonna get Ya, gonna get Ya, comin' back again

So here is my diagnosis; I'm in a constant state of drug-induced psychosis
My prognosis is showin' me my self-medicating is killing me slowly
I've been broken in so many ways that I cannot even begin to explain
Feel the debt building up; someday I'll have to pay
But for now, I keep it hidden in my shame
My judgment is clouded
And my mind is overcrowded
If to no one else, I must admit to myself
That my problems are bad for my health
This is the stuff that no one wants to talk about
Can't gather the words to speak out loud
Like an outcast lyin' on the ground
I need a kick in the ass, or the spiral goes down

Those were the days I loved to love nothing
But I'm gonna' miss 'em if I ever move on

Cocaine, in the membrane, in the membrane, in the membrane
Co-caine, in the membrane, in the membrane, in the membrane
It's that cocaine, in the membrane, in the membrane, in, the membrane
The dopamine man gonna get Ya, gonna get Ya, comin' back again

I'm the only one that can tell that my ambitions ain't growin'
I'm always in doubt, seems like life just ain't goin'
They way that it's planned out in my head
Everything has a purpose, so I'll tell you what my body says
It's probably a problem that definitely needs solvin'
Like a modulus, it's logic; denominator is common
It's definitely the problem that's stoppin' my evolvin', okay
It's obviously the problem that needs solvin'
I know it, but don't give a f*ck, though
I put on a show, deep down I'm nerv and high
I need to fight the ever-growing urge to lead a life of a body of lies
Only care about now, fail to see the long term
Yet I can't admit the direction that this is goin in
Lyin' to myself is truly a sin; I don't care about it, just tryin' to maybe admit it

I'm dazed and confused, purple hazin' and booze
Ecstasy and some shrooms, and co..cai... wait
How's that go again

Cocaine, in the membrane, in the membrane, in the membrane
Co-caine, in the membrane, in the membrane, in the membrane
Am I crazy, maybe I am insane, Just wanna be done
I feel dumb, but wanna be numb, so I take drug and have some fun

I wish that I could say that Doze Days are a thing of the past
But in the present, they always just seem the best
I'm dazed in ways that faze me no more
My ways of living in that haze, they became the norm
Just one more time, just one more time.. This time will surely be the last