Suffering: Redefined Video (MV)

I woke up today
On the wrong side of the bed is what they'll say
But I spent two years on the floor
Lost sight of what I'm searching for
I understand
It takes much more now to be a man
Wasted every moment grieving
There's more to life than living
I will remain captive to my thoughts
Tried to bury all of the memories
But the ink won't cover scars
And on the days when I look back
It's like an anchor around my heart
We tried to throw away our complacent ways
To only go back to the start
We loved cloudy days
And when it rained in the summertime
I won't change this warped state of mind
That's fine because it rains here all the time
Staring at the ceiling
I'm hanging by a thread
I catch your scent as you turn away
And my eyes roll back into my head
Forcing myself
Coping with a brand new process
Forcing myself
There's got to be a better way than this.
We loved cloudy days
And when it rained in the summertime
I won't change this warped state of mind
That's fine because it rains here all the time
This is the ending you all wanted
Now watch as I choke myself to death
Pull the plug to relieve any doubt
If there's a god, I'll tell him how you suffered
Let me fade away from this world