LEX the Lexicon Artist - Self Care (feat. Shubzilla & Mikal kHill) Lyrics

Yo
It's not easy being me for a start
Always dealing with these secrets that I keep in my heart
Feeling steeped in my own demons that are feeding my art
Deep in need of self-esteem but still believe that I'm smart
To tease them apart, would mean to keep my ego at bay
Flimsy like a sheet of paint I feel it peeling away
I'd rather lie than try to put this side of me on display
So I'm staying high and dry from seeing any people today
Sometimes I shrink into myself, taking a dive
Into the depths of depression and question why I'm alive
And other times I think that I'm the best to ever exist
And wonder why the next messiah's taking everyone's shit
They say take care of yourself or you'll burn out
No project and no obstacle's too hellish to surmount
But first you gotta get some self care, put your needs first
Now I'm seeking some suggestions guess I'll do some research
So now I'm doing some self care
Success has been elusive when pursuing it elsewhere
Don't wanna be deluded, I'm improving my welfare
So tell me what to do if I were looking for self care
Hell yeah
So now I'm doing some self care
Success has been elusive when pursuing it elsewhere
Don't wanna be deluded, I'm improving my welfare
So tell me what to do if I were looking for self care
Hell yeah
You out doin research, Sis
But I think there's a step that we mighta missed
Do you got a book that you wanna start readin?
A favorite blend of tea that you're into drinkin?
What about a nice bubble bath?
So hoes outta pocket don't incur your wrath
Cuz there's always gonna be some bitch who rain on your parade
You out gettin bags while they ain't gettin paid
List all them accolades you got a long resume
I know you're down to try that out - when do you hesitate?
Stroll around the city heard she's pretty with these Christmas lights
Stayin in is dope too, appreciate them nights
You jet set hustlin - work can wait
Save for another day that full f*ckin plate
Know your worth, this your terf, gotta go self-serve
Start with a deep breath - calm that nerve
So now I'm doing some self care
Success has been elusive when pursuing it elsewhere
Don't wanna be deluded, I'm improving my welfare
So tell me what to do if I were looking for self care
Hell yeah
So now I'm doing some self care
Success has been elusive when pursuing it elsewhere
Don't wanna be deluded, I'm improving my welfare
So tell me what to do if I were looking for self care
Hell yeah
You might see me rolling on a paperchase and say
How do you maintain in a world so tasteless WAIT
I have to correct them, you see these claims are baseless mane
I am MAD FUCKING STRESSED on a daily basis, dang
I do have a few rules, for fools that cross lines
Swiftly get a broke disk down in their damn spine
Since the cancer came i been slightly outta my mind
Stab a motherf*ck out of line that waste my time
On any random day that I don't feel like i need to go into the office
I call every manager and tell them they can suck two dicks
Neither mine. I'm drunk before they pick up the phone
Self medicating is the only therapy i know
That's how it goes though from womb to tomb now
No smile on my face, self care is a permanent scowl
Blowing off appointments I got a lot on my plate
And honestly I have to admit it's pretty great
So now I'm doing some self care
Success has been elusive when pursuing it elsewhere
Don't wanna be deluded, I'm improving my welfare
So tell me what to do if I were looking for self care
Hell yeah
So now I'm doing some self care
Success has been elusive when pursuing it elsewhere
Don't wanna be deluded, I'm improving my welfare
So tell me what to do if I were looking for self care
Hell yeah