Ness Video (MV)

I called your phone
I wish you were home
And this might f*ck me up
To think of us
But I'm still here for you
And I reached to touch
And to feel for us
But before I caught
It slipped right from my fingers and fell
I wanna feel you, yeah
I wanna feel you darling
I wanna feel something
I wanna feel something, yeah yeah

One in the morning, I sit in here and record this
A cabin located northern
Where the sun comes after torrents
And the mountains always beautiful
This shit is never boring
Got my homies all surrounding me, I'm feeling kind of warm
But this morning woke up mourning some things I haven't been speaking of
Tryna think of music but instead I f*cking think of us
I know it's been some years and you're hella tired of hearing this
Believe me, so am I, but this feeling is so apparent
Had a dream that we were talking through some form of message
Bulking up to sentences
Our penmanships in instances where all this love was pouring
And I read the shit and tried to make some sense of it
But couldn't really get the shit up in my frame of focus
And I woke up powerless and lesser than when I laid my head to rest
Perplexed by this shit, I said "What's next, am I nearing mental edge?"
Guess I had this shit on my mind since that one night that I broke up with my last girl
Had me thinking 'bout every single last girl
Had a couple more, but you feel like the last girl I really f*cked with
Tell the truth, saying that feels so shit
'Cause I did some shit I'm not proud of
To a girl I thought I f*cked with
But instead I f*cked with her emotions
For my own gains, for the quotients
I was dead wrong for the whole shit
She was so good
I was so shit
Had me thinking back before my love was grown up as f*ck
Before I thought about the shit I did before it was done
Back when loving felt like loving
A feeling I felt like trusting
Back when every first was first and I didn't feel so disgusted
With intentions and arrangements and keeping up with my savings
Back when every thought was urgent
I could never really save it
Back when I was passionate, 'cause that shit just left me with aging
If I did the same at present most people would call me crazy, but
Thing is, I'm in love with that shit
Felt like a movie with your fingers in my lingering hand grip
Feel like a fool
I don't love you, just in search for the feeling we had
Stuck to this pen and my pad
Write 'til the feeling is past

I called your phone
I wish you were home
And this might f*ck me up
To think of us
But I'm still here for you
And I reached to touch
And to feel for us
But before I caught
It slipped right from my fingers and fell
I wanna feel you, yeah
I wanna feel you darling
I wanna feel something
I wanna feel something, yeah yeah