FITTS Video (MV)

I wish you, I wish you
I wish you knew half the shit that I think about you on daily basis
I write these words to hit home, for now I'm running bases
The thought of knowing you again nearly tore me to pieces
I mean, Jesus, anybody that knows you would see it
The reasons why I'm still kinda sorta in love with you, but
Wishing I could push this shit down, but man it's probably true, cause
The spring in your step, the spark in your eyes
It's hard not to fall back into the shit that we tried like 3 years ago
Way before the pain and hasty smoking dope
When holding on your hand was all I really thought I'd need to cope
Back seat of my pickup truck, my hands around your thighs
I think about it all the time
Really wish I didn't have to try to forget it
I really got no incentive
I still have that f*cking painting that you got me at Christmas
And that journal that you'd paste and scribble little by little
We reminisce and I lie, act like there's shit I'm forgetting
But it's crystal clear
Just saw you and I'm wishing you were here
Know I'm f*cking glad I saw you, 'cause I really care
Different from the last time
Now you sit and dye your hair and roll your own cigarettes
I wish that I could think of you a little less
You get depressed but please don't try coke
'Cause I know you hate your figure
But I guess it kind of figures
God's twisted sense of humor
That's a weird, divine hoax
The most beautiful people always searching to find hope
And yeah I know we were kids
And it is what it is
And I'd like to forget
I'd like to think that you didn't
I'd like to think that I'm special
I'd like to think you'd forget him and all the snowcapped mountains
I really wish I could get it
I really wish I was with you
At the end of the day, you're still fighting for answers
Just know I'm fighting it with you
And as these words keep falling out the tip of my pencil, I really hope that you listen
Can't help it if I miss it

Our bodies intertwined, binding and breaking like knees
Skin to skin, I can't pretend that you're not the only thing I need
Why I'm so warm in the winter
Why you're so cold by the coast
I see summers with you like fever dreaming pictures
Pitching regrets in the water like a dirty secret
Hate you're the one thing I needed
Sick of keeping these secrets
Sick of feeling so defeated
Wishing I could spend the weekend and find time
Find time to move
Summer, all mine