I've missed out on so much sleep
In the last couple of weeks
I've always been such a f*cking routine skeptic
Like every thought I have, I have to disinfect it
And I don't think that will change
I have a bone to pick with me
In the mirror there's a lot I see
None of it is comforting in any f*cking way
But maybe I'll be content with myself one f*cking day
But I don't really count on that
My life is moving way too fast (oh oh oh)
My head's reliving my old past (oh oh oh)
But now I'm just a grown man
With the world in my face
Inside I'm a lost boy
Feeling out of place
And nothing but a waste of space
Ay
I'm going on to twenty one
Thought by now that I would jump ship maybe grab a gun
I'm not really sure what I'm doing with my life yet
Cause I really f*cking doubt my toughest adversary's been met, like
Feels like the years just get harder
Got me looking back at every f*cking time I'm suicidal
Like what would've happened if I ended it there
And after a couple years anybody would still f*cking care, huh
I'm okay
I'm alright
Been faking smiles
My whole life
Dodging questions
Left and right
Yeah I've been okay
All my life
I'm okay
I'm alright
Been faking smiles
My whole life
Dodging questions
Left and right
Yeah I've been okay
All my life
My life is moving way too fast (oh oh oh)
My head's reliving my old past (oh oh oh)
But now I'm just a grown man
With the world in my face
Inside I'm a lost boy
Feeling out of place
And nothing but a waste of space
My life is moving way too fast (oh oh oh)
My head's reliving my old past (oh oh oh)
But now I'm just a grown man
With the world in my face
Inside I'm a lost boy
Feeling out of place
And nothing but a waste of space