Left in Suspense - Poser (Demo) Lyrics

I've been taking pills to lift the weight of my shoulders
Yeah I started drinking just for me to think sober
Started using substance to numb what I feel
It's hard to keep apart what I dream and what's real

I guess I'll throw a party just to hide I'm alone
I'll create illusions and rethink all I know
I'll light up a cigarette and inhale the smoke
Exhale some more misery, pretend I'm not broke

That's how it always goes
And it's all I know

Well I'm a liar, guess I'm on fire
My life's a lie
Well I'm a poser, my days are over
I'm just wasting my time

The urge to feel alive, the urge to feel so high
The urge to stand above reality and feel alright
Well you can blow me I'm never gonna feel alright
I'm just a f*ck up, only about to ruin my life

It's all I know

Well I'm a liar, guess I'm on fire
My life's a lie
Well I'm a poser, my days are over
I'm just wasting my time

I'll search redemption by our lord and holy father
I'll start confessing everything and be a better daughter
I'll drop bombs instead of acid cause I'm not one to mess with
I'll search redemption, please forgive me

Don't take life so serious, you won't get out alive

Well I'm a liar, guess I'm on fire
My life's a lie
Well I'm a poser, my days are over
I'm just wasting my time
Well I'm a liar, guess I'm on fire
My life's a lie
Well I'm a poser, my days are over
I'm just wasting my time