Sober Video (MV)

I tried staying sober
I tried, I tried
I don't know what's worse
The feelings left over
Or the feeling that I'm going nowhere
I believe I'll never recover
I believe I've failed my mother

What's the use?
Drugs I abuse
Oh, in solitude
I don't need you
I just need a dose
So I can get out of this mood
Everyone thinks I'm stronger
Than I am
I don't feel right without a drink
In my hand

I don't feel right
I don't feel right
Yeah
I don't feel
I numb the pain
I just escape
Under it, I break
We are the same
But not the same
I can't relate
I can't relate
What you want me to say?
I been like this always

Now I'm wound up
This the good stuff
Am I enough?
Didn't think so
Now I take some
And I rebound
And I have fun
But really deep down
I have no one
Shit, I know what's best for me
Though I know what's next for me
Imma pop one, then imma pop two
Imma pop three, imma pop four
Got me

Layin on the floor
She begging me to slow down
But I might need four more
Put me in slow-mo
I drink when I'm leanin
Cuz I don't wanna breathe just
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
Leave it
Leave it

I smoke just to forget
I sip so I can live, yeah
Each day I'm in bad shape
These pills got me faded
Out in the rain waiting
Nobody here, same shit
I must be my number one hater
I must be my number one hater