Hotboxin & Suboxone (feat. Rio Lanza) Video (MV)

Alive & well I feel you in my skin
Lost in thought were you trapped within
Living through dreams laying in my bed
Lifeless voices loud in my head
What do you do when your friends are dead
What do you do when your friends are dead
Hearing each word that you ever said

Missing my homies don't take em away
Spitting from my mouth something never thought I'd say
What you do when all your homies pass away
Tryin live this life without getting in my way
I'm still lost yeah I'm still lost but I'll be okay
Posted up Pour it out for the lost homie
Spitting from my mouth something never thought I'd say
What you do when all your homies pass away

A Privileged life with no poverty
But I Still got homies locked up for robbery
'Remember Throwin' it back to gettin nuzzy
But now its all shade and the drugs are gettin fuzzy
We were young it was fun til we started strappin guns
Hotboxin to suboxone just to numb our pain
Stayed grounded got trapped no ball & chain
Too Worried bout myself i tried to stay in my own lane

Lit up the world never going in blind
I'd take it all back just to see you one more time
Young & dumb Never thought we'd be a statistic
Lookin back I guess we shoulda been realistic
Every night was a party over here
Steady poppin molly as the end drew near
Stuck in my head I couldn't see your struggled side
Never woulda thought it'd lead you to suicide man

Alive & well I feel you in my skin
Lost in thought were you trapped within
Living through dreams laying in my bed
Lifeless voices loud in my head
What do you do when your friends are dead
What do you do when your friends are dead
Hearing each word that you ever said

Called my phone to tell me what's wrong
Could hear it in your voice you tried to be so strong
The call broke up "yo are you still there?"
"You gotta Speak up" I said "don't you care?"
But who was I? I didn't treat you fair
Lost in vision & my own despair
Alone in the dark I failed to be aware
Shamed by trauma it was too much to bare
Dropped my eyes I wasn't able to see
Didn't know who you needed to be
Call it cliche but we were family
Now it feels like I Lost a piece of me
Ollie was born thought you'd be there for my son
Your life ended just as his begun
He won't meet you but he'll know your name
Fire in his heart stemming from your flame

I should be more than just okay
Tired of feeling like I always need an escape
Missing the parts of me that felt so safe
But that old version of me was to blame
All the pain I was feeling and the way I was dealing
Now I just sit and feel em
I dont medicate anymore