I've messed up again
Forgive me, I'm scared
I push you away when I need you near
I tried to escape
The void that I've made
But when silence fades nobody's there
Staring down a well
Wishing for a spell
To make my mind escape the night, just tonight
Throwing coins away
But can't afford to pay
The remedy I crave to find, for my mind
In a different story I would do you better, make things right
But I'm stuck in this story, only write you letters you can't find