Desperate Days Video (MV)

I'm living these long nights and desperate days
Drop ah track and hope it pays
Please forgive my wicked ways
Out here in the struggle lord let us pray
I'm living these long nights and desperate days
Drop ah track and hope it pays
Please forgive my wicked ways
Out here in the struggle lord let us pray
This is my life and it's a battle within
So many chances to do good but I keep giving in
Stuck in my wicked ways committing my sins
Telling my story with the blood of my pen
A simple man with a talent a vision and a dream
Trying to find a balance it's enough to make you scream
Way too much anger and low self-esteem
For my family's sake my soul I got to redeem
Cause I admit I'm a boozer I know I'm a user
It's in my blood to be a drunk alcohol abuser
My life's shit like ah sewer at the bottom with the losers
Looking for a better future but I'm needing it sooner
So how the f*ck do I maintain with all this pressure that I'm facing
I'm bout to snap and submit to my demons temptations
Prescription pills getting swallowed drinking Crown just to chase it
I want to down the bottle but my stomach can't take it
Ulcers always bleeding cause I'm holding onto my struggles
But if I let them go then the whole world going to be in trouble
Cause my thoughts are feeling dangerous full of self-hate and rage
I'm so pissed at myself and what I've became
So many dreams have led me to something I can't obtain
So here goes down another bar just to lessen the pain
You can stop with the mean mugging you really ain't impressing
Cause if you ain't my maker then you can stop with all the judging
I'm living these long nights and desperate days
Drop ah track and hope it pays
Please forgive my wicked ways
Out here in the struggle lord let us pray
I'm living these long nights and desperate days
Drop ah track and hope it pays
Please forgive my wicked ways
Out here in the struggle lord let us pray
The way I've been treated got me colder than Arctic
I know I should try but honestly I can't stop it
Life's ah four letter word like shit and piss
I stayed loyal to you all and this the thanks I get
A knife in my back and spit on my face
Thought I had some homies but that wasn't the case
I'm just an agenda and bitch is your trait
So you can slither away with the rest of the snakes
Rejecting your calls I'm cleaning the slate
I'm wishing you well as I ride to my fate
If you've dealt with the phonies I bet you relate
So much on my plate it's like I'm ah magnet for hate
It's like I'm addicted to destruction chaos and confusion
Acting like I'm fine but honestly I'm losing
No self-control so down goes another bottle
Self-pity and I wallow another shot gets swallowed
I ain't ah role model that you wanna follow
So leave me alone down deep in the hallows
Them mountain pines and backwoods keep it hunting from the shadows
Amongst the wolves and assholes egos bigger than pot holes
Reaping what I sow in this life I chose
Destined for the gutter but still I rose
I'm living these long nights and desperate days
Drop ah track and hope it pays
Please forgive my wicked ways
Out here in the struggle lord let us pray
I'm living these long nights and desperate days
Drop ah track and hope it pays
Please forgive my wicked ways
Out here in the struggle lord let us pray