Laci Mercede - Jake Lyrics

I think about you all the time Jake
How you were my age
When the world took your body and soul
Life wasn't what you planned it
Or was it
Did you want this life to be a short one
Did you accomplish all you needed
Or did the world leave you feeling defeated
I could imagine little Jake's changing the world
Her beautiful Brazilian hair, your deep blue eyes
The one that gives all that hard earned money to a street fella who's broken and cold
You are the one I love to hold on to
For I know that you're on the other side
Would you still be playing guitar
Would you be proud of how I've come this far
I don't know how I've done it without you
I'm a black sheep in this home nest, I'm alone
Jake I miss you
I wish I could hug you
That cross necklace still holds your fingerprints
I never washed it
And that stuffed puppy sits on my desk when I make music
Several baths I cried
I almost let myself drown
Took a blade to my skin
To ask God to take me instead of him
And here I am
Did you meet Jesus
Is he real
Did you get a mansion in the white hills
Jake I miss you
I hope you found all the things you could do for eternity
I got too many tattoos of you
I hope you always find what you're meant to do
And it scares me knowing that
Your heart was too thick
Too thick to live
Too hard to give
I wish I could see you now and show you the man I met
He's so damn good at being good to me
Brother I'm not mad at you for leaving
I bet you had bigger business
I know you had purpose