Tell me why the f*ck that I feel this way
I be smokin', ashin on the window pane
I be tryin', but these things won't ever change
I've come a long way, but I went the wrong way
Tell me why the f*ck that I feel this way
I be smokin', ashin on the window pane
I be tryin', but these things won't ever change
I've come a long way, but I went the wrong way
Tellin' me you love me but I know damn well you don't
F*ck me 'round and 'round, you lyin
You hidin' like that damn cloak
F*cked my life up, used my time up, I ain't got nowhere to go
I been sittin', I been drinkin', walkin' in the f*ckin' snow
I just want my time intact and read all of these f*ckin' demons
But my mind is not at home and I ain't found a f*ckin' reason
To live or drive to riverside, I'm feelin' like it's suicide
Slit my veins, bloody drains, bathtub full of memory pain
Tell me why the f*ck that I feel this way
I be smokin', ashin on the window pane
I be tryin', but these things won't ever change
I've come a long way, but I went the wrong way
Tell me why the f*ck that I feel this way
I be smokin', ashin on the window pane
I be tryin', but these things won't ever change
I've come a long way, but I went the wrong way
You just upped and vanished
I wish I knew what happened
'Cause now I feel abandoned
Fever of a hunnid thousand
Lost everything I ever had in a mission
Took to addiction, stole my ambition
Can not decipher my demons, so my friends I can't trust 'em
Hit the demons and I'm bustin' caps in their stomachs
Playin' with my thoughts and my feelin's
So I gotta keep on killin' these tracks, 'cause it's all that I got
F*ck that bitch with the long dick like
Drown my thoughts with the long neck, right
Hit the beach at the midnight 'till
I drown everything that I feel
You won't understand where I've been
Places so dark and stark I need a restart
Smart with remarks, blow up 'till I fall to shards
Lookin' up to the stars
Tell me why the f*ck that I feel this way
I be smokin', ashin on the window pane
I be tryin', but these things won't ever change
I've come a long way, but I went the wrong way
Tell me why the f*ck that I feel this way
I be smokin', ashin on the window pane
I be tryin', but these things won't ever change
I've come a long way, but I went the wrong way
And I've been stuck in my thoughts, thinkin' way the f*ck back
The happy times, now I'm in grief, knowin' I can't go back
Man this shits tough, I feel like hittin' the sack
I wake up and I'm tired of livin', I'm feelin' way different
My friends don't understand it, and I'm at peace with that
I just wanna numb myself, so I can't feel anything
My head is clouded with depression, times changed and it's too different
I'm unstable and I'm not settled, I'm f*ckin' drinkin' again
Sittin' on the balcony, palm trees swayin' in the wind
A Camel between my fingers, watchin' the sky, will I be allowed in
Things I've done, things I can't change
It's weighin' on my shoulders
Like the weight of the whole world
My souls gone, I'm too cold, I ain't f*ckin' stable
I ain't f*ckin' stable