LA New Kid - Change Lyrics

Everything I said I would not be, I have become
Everything that I said I would not do, I have done
Everything I said I would be, I ain't made it, back to square one
Here we go again, lights camera action, oh
This ain't a movie, you can't restart to where you had the gold
You gotta keep movin' forward 'till you get it all
Even if to this day you're all a-f*ckin'-lone, yeah
I gotta find my inner vision, 'cause I've been losin' passion
Dealin' with this oppression, drownin' within my depression
I can not decipher my demons, but I can feel 'em
I spend my nights thinkin' so much that it should kill 'em
But it don't, so I'm all choked, lookin' for the rope
'Cause I've been suicidal for the past year
Prayin' for things to change, but nothin' does here
The only thing that changes is my mother f*ckin' fear
One, two, three to the four, put me on blast with the five black wolves
F*ck, me, up, go, leave me on track with my cold broke soul
Don't, you, worry, oh, I will be okay 'cause I've always been alone
One, two, three to the four, put me on blast with the five black wolves
Tell me how I feel, you ain't got no time for me
You ain't even real, drained the whole life in me
Gotta take a pill, drown all the feelin' in me
Things I gotta kill, you ain't in my misery
I placed another deal, Devil runnin' after me
Speedin' with my wheels, wobblin' side to side
Think I'm gonna crash soon, I ran away from the platoon
Two demons in my room, go to sleep and I float to the moon
Only time I feel safe, 'cause when I'm awake, I'm dealin' with my pain
I don't ever get a break, I'm lookin' for change, but I can't think straight
Yeah, hard to push forward when your demons pull you back
No matter how hard, they always come attack
You could try and force, but your face fall flat
Harder than you would, if you ain't go fast
One, two, three to the four, put me on blast with the five black wolves
F*ck, me, up, go, leave me on track with my cold broke soul
Don't, you, worry, oh, I will be okay 'cause I've always been alone
One, two, three to the four, put me on blast with the five black wolves
One more!
One, two, three to the four, put me on blast with the five black wolves
F*ck, me, up, go, leave me on track with my cold broke soul
Don't, you, worry, oh, I will be okay 'cause I've always been alone
One, two, three to the four, put me on blast with the five black wolves
Yeah I still fall and I stumble quite a bit
I guess this is just the life that I f*ckin' live
I'm tryna find a place to feel and f*ckin' breathe a bit
But no matter where I go, I'm still drownin' in this shit
I've been hurt all my life, but still got a lot to give
And I hope god can forgive me for all the wrong that I did
I pray that my mom and dad be okay while I'm gone
I miss y'all like crazy, insane, but this where I belong
I'm sorry that I'm stuck and I'm numb, and I f*cked with the guns
And I left, I'm on a run from my past
Scared I'll fall and end up right back
It's hard enough to even accept this fact
Everything that I had will never be back in my hands
Gotta move forward, 'cause I'm losin' my stance
Places that I go, places that I stand
Places that I throw, places that I feel alone
One, two, three to the four, put me on blast with the five black wolves
F*ck, me, up, go, leave me on track with my cold broke soul
Don't, you, worry, oh, I will be okay 'cause I've always been alone
One, two, three to the four, put me on blast with the five black wolves
Sing it!
One, two, three to the four, put me on blast with the five black wolves
F*ck, me, up, go, leave me on track with my cold broke soul
Don't, you, worry, oh, I will be okay 'cause I've always been alone
One, two, three to the four, put me on blast with the five black wolves