LA New Kid - Beautiful Pain Lyrics

Every night I close my eyes
You're all that's in my mind
I wanna take you away
From this cold pouring rain
Grab my hand babe
We can leave it all behind
No need to shed a tear
I'm looking in your eyes
And I just wanna cry
You are so beautiful to me
But you're gone
And I'm still sitting in the same spot
Waiting for the day my music pops
Running out of ideas
Making me feel like a flop
And I ain't even made it a quarter way to the top
Quit my f*cking job
Feel like just gripping the glock
Put it to my temple wish my friends luck
Lately I've been feeling like I don't give a f*ck
Lately I've been feeling this world is too much
Lately I've been contemplating
Anticipating downgrading my grind
And I catch myself waiting
Instead of running and driving and striving
I'm falling and hurting and crying
I'm sprinting escaping my demons
I'm tripping and crawling and screaming
Stuck in my contradictions
Feel like I lost my conscience
Laying in my bed staring at the ceiling
Don't know where the f*ck I'm going