L Valentine - in my head Lyrics

Oh, it's not like you're the first
But everything beautiful like you is cursed
She forgot, and he moved on
I had to go but I'm never truly gone

New fears grew, anxiety
With the blossom of a lack of intimacy
When I can't show vulnerability
How can I expect anyone to truly love me

It's not like I can stop
Whenever I want to, I'm always stuck on you
It's not worth it to hurt
Over something that's nothing, in knots like a drawstring
I'm gone and undone
Why am I so hopeless, one thing never changes
It's me, constantly
Writing love songs in my head that you'll never get to see

Now I ache here
I stumble
This new love is so fickle that it crumbles

Under my weight
And my mind
And the other insecurities I haven't thought to try yet

And it burns in my soul
When I don't or can't know
When to stop or be cold
Or begin to quit hurting, on fire, i'm burning

It's not like I can stop
Whenever I want to, I'm always stuck on you
It's not worth it to hurt
Over something that's nothing, in knots like a drawstring
I'm gone and undone
Why am I so hopeless, one thing never changes
It's me, constantly
Writing love songs in my head that you'll never get to see

Can I even call it love
When it really feels like pain
The delusion that you'd want any more than what you're getting

Is like pinches of salt
Like it's nothing at all
I could want you, I could fix you
Am I anything when you're gone

It's not like I can stop
Whenever I want to, I'm always stuck on you
It's not worth it to hurt
Over something that's nothing, in knots like a drawstring
I'm gone and undone
Why am I so hopeless, one thing never changes
It's me, constantly
Writing love songs in my head that you'll never get to see