Prelude to Ecstasy Album Lyrics by The Last Dinner Party

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Prelude to Ecstacy

[Instrumental]

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Burn Alive

Wine is on your blouse
You think it's so romantic
But in reality
We're both just addicts

I am not the girl I set out to be
Let me make my grief a commodity
Do what I can to survive
There is candle wax melting in my veins
So I keep myself standing in your flames
Burn, burn me alive

I am at the stake
Petrol my perfume
Bite marks on my back
I never could say no
You don't wanna hurt me
But I want you to
I'd break off my rib
To make another you

You made me bite my tongue
And now there's blood in my glass
Will you buy me a new one?
This is too good to last

I am not the girl I set out to be
Let me make my grief a commodity
Do what I can to survive
There is candle wax melting in my veins
So I keep myself standing in your flames
Burn, burn me alive

Burn me alive (I am not the girl I set out to be)
(Let me make my grief a commodity) burn me alive
(Do what I can to survive)
Burn me (there is candle wax melting in my veins)
Burn me (so I keep myself standing in your flames)
Burn me alive (burn, burn me alive)

Burn, burn me alive

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Caesar on a TV Screen

Every night when we say goodbye
I know that I can see myself as a man
When I put on that suit, I don't have to stay mute
I can talk all the time 'cause my shoulders are wide

And I'm falling like the leaves on Leningrad
I follow your footprints when I can't hold your hand
My darling, believe me, I was born to be with you
But it'll be me that the world will answer to

And just for a second, I could be one of the greats
I'll be Caesar on a TV screen, champion of my fate
No one can tell me to stop, I'll have everything I want, anyone
And everyone will like me then
Everyone will like me then

When I was a child, I never felt like a child
I felt like an emperor with a city to burn
I got down on my knees, begged the men in the trees
To give me an answer, je ne peux pas comme ça

And it's raining like it did in Leningrad
My lover would like to buy a flat in Leningrad
And I'd trade my tongue in just to hear him every night
To talk about Red Scare and how they got it right

And just for a second, I could be one of the greats
I am Caesar on a TV screen, champion of my fate
No one can tell me to stop, I'll have everything I want, anyone
And everyone will like me then
Everyone will love me

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The Feminine Urge

A room at dusk
Mastering the art of lying still
Breathe like a girl
'Til my lungs fill

Oh, pull your boots on, boys
And push me down
I'm only here for your entertainment

I am a dark red liver stretched out on the rocks
All the poison, I convert it and I turn it to love
Here comes the feminine urge, I know it so well
To nurture the wounds my mother held

Oh, ballerina bend under the weight of it all
Ain't it fun to hold the world in your hands?
Do you feel like a man when I can't talk back?
Do you want me or do you want control?
Failure to commit to the role, I admit
Was a failure you achieved on your own
Do you want me to care when you just disappear?
I can't win them all (I can't win them all)

Run 'til I fall
How I wish the trees would swallow me
Make me a forest
Take away my soul

I could never give
The curse to her
I- I could never live with the guilt of lying
That people are kind

I am a dark red liver stretched out on the rocks
All the poison, I convert it and I turn it to love
Here comes the feminine urge, I know it so well
To nurture the wounds my mother held

Oh, ballerina bend under the weight of it all
Ain't it fun to hold the world in your hands?
Do you feel like a man when I can't talk back?
Do you want me or do you want control?
Failure to commit to the role, I admit
Was a failure you achieved on your own
Do you want me to care when you just disappear?
I can't win them all (I can't win them all)

I am a dark red liver stretched out on the rocks
All the poison, I convert it and I turn it to love
Here comes the feminine urge, I know it so well
To nurture the wounds my mother held
Give me that dark red liquor stretched out on the rocks
All the poison, I convert it and I turn it to love
Here comes the feminine urge, I know it so well
To nurture the wounds my mother held

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On Your Side

I know I'm better off not looking back
Forgive me father, won't you take it back?
That we were lovers
Bodies touching on park benches
Stray dogs watching
It disgusts me now

I wish I didn't want you
Wish I could do without
This blood on my face
Where you teeth sunk in
Bite me again

When it's 4 AM
And your heart is breaking
I will hold your hands
To stop them from shaking
If it takes all night
I will be on your side

Back to the olive mount you lead me to
The wind was blinding so I clung to you
And you smiled so sweetly
As you threw me
Down the rocks into the seaweed
You thought that I could fly

I wish I didn't want you
Wish I could do without this blood
On my face, where your teeth sunk in
Bite me again

When it's 4 AM
And your heart is breaking
I will hold your hands
To stop them from shaking
If it takes all night
I will be on your side

When you're lying here, I believe you love me
You can hold my hair back when you kiss me
If you stay all night, I will be on your side

When it's 4 AM
And your heart is breaking
I will hold your hands
To stop them from shaking
If it takes all night
I will be on your side

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Beautiful Boy

The best a boy can ever be is pretty
He launches ships on which he sails to safety
And what I'm feeling isn't lust, it's envy
He has the Earth makes love to her, to spite me

I am held captive by the ribbon 'round my neck
Each course I chart determined by a wreck
The power in my hips is useless in the dark
What good are red lips when you're faced with something sharp?

Beautiful boy
Beautiful boy
Beautiful boy
I wish I could be a beautiful boy
Beautiful boy
Beautiful boy

I wish I could be a beautiful boy

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Gjuha

Mund të marrë pak kohë
Kohë me folë shlirë
Jo nuk foli
Fshije gojën
Gjuha ime
E Prisht

Sdi me ta përkthy (sdi me ta përkthy)
Mund të marr pak kohë (mund të marr pak kohë)
E hupa gjuhën
Kurrë se mësova
Moti pa fjalorë

Moj e bukura
Fati im
Kurrë ste pashë

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Sinner

I wish I knew you
Back when we were both small
I wish I knew you
But I have gotten too tall
I wish I knew you
When touch was innocent
I wish I knew you
Before it felt like a sin

Felt like a sin
Before it felt like a sin
Felt like a sin
Before it felt like a sin

There's nothing for me
Here, where the world is small
But how you touch me
For that, I'd leave it all
Back in the city
Cold eyes and lips of dust
So turn and face me
Turn to the altar of lust

Felt like a sin
Before it felt like a sin
(Pray for me on your knees)
(Pray for me on your knees)
(Pray for me on your knees)
Before it felt like a sin
Felt like a sin
Before it felt like a sin
(Pray for me on your knees)
(Pray for me on your knees)
(Pray for me on your knees)
Before it felt like a sin

Stay through the night
I'd spend the mornings by your side
(Pray for me on your knees)
Time slips away (pray for me on your knees)
(Pray for me on your knees)
Before the hillside turns to grey

Pray for me, kneel with me
Soak in the crystal stream
Wash the sin from your back
Cleanse my soul, make me whole
Dance in the morning glow
Hold me, we can't go back
Before it felt like a sin

Felt like a sin
Before it felt like a sin
(Pray for me on your knees)
(Pray for me on your knees)
(Pray for me on your knees)
Before it felt like a sin
Felt like a sin
Before it felt like a sin

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My Lady of Mercy

Take me back to your swimming pool
You lovely little
Foolish thinking I could have you
Naked in a trench coat

I'll see you on Sunday
I wanna hear them sing

Teach me how to do as you do
Guide me show me how
And let me be your arrow
Baby, make me bow

I'll see you on Sunday
I wanna hear them sing, uh

Oh, rest your feet on me
My lady of mercy
Strike me, pierce me
Straight through the heart
Ha, ha-oh, ha

I, I want to take your picture
Picture me in bed
Under your crucifix
Under your long black hair

I'll see you on Sunday
I wanna make them sing, uh

Oh, rest your feet on me
My lady of mercy
Strike me, pierce me
Straight through the heart
Ha, ha-oh, ha

Oh, rest your feet on me
My lady of mercy
Strike me, pierce me
Straight through the heart
Ha, ha-oh, ha
Ha, ha-oh, ha
Ha, ha-oh, ha

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Portrait Of A Dead Girl

When you laid like a wolf
With your head on my lap
I felt like one of those portraits
Of women protected by a beast on a chain

They look so safe
A guard dog there just for her
If only she knew that with one wrong move
He'll turn around and tear off her hands

And I wish you had given me the courtesy
Of ripping out my throat
And I wish that I let you have the dignity
Of letting me go

I break apart without your arms
The smell of soap and petrol smarts
Let me feed you to my friends
Over and over again

Let my last words be our last dance
I'd die for you no questions asked
If anyone could kill me
It probably would be you

He's got letters on his fist
R-I-D-E
A triumph on his hips
He looks like one of those
Film stars
With a blow up doll
And a BB gun

And I wish you had given me the courtesy
Of staying one more night
And I wish that I had the guts
The dignity
To put up a fight

I break apart without your arms
The smell of soap and petrol smarts
Let me feed you to my friends
Over and over again

Let my last words be our last dance
I'd die for you no questions asked
If anyone could kill me
It probably would be you
Don't have the strength to pin me down
The time I wasted in your mouth
Waves that crash against your chest
Over and over again

I'd kiss your eyes and frame your teeth
As you crawl back into the sea
Oh, anyone could kill me
And I'd never ever let it be you

Give me the strength
Give me the strength
Give me the strength
Give me the strength
Give me the strength
Give me the strength
Give me the strength
Give me the strength
Give me the strength
Give me the strength
Give me the strength
Give me the strength

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Nothing Matters

I have my sentence now
At last, I know just how you felt
I dig my fingers in, expecting more than just the skin
'Cause we're a lot alike
In favor, like a motorbike
A sailor and a nightingale
Slow dancing in convertibles

And you can hold me like he held her
And I will f*ck you like nothing matters
And you can hold me like he held her
And I will f*ck you like nothing matters

We've got the highway tight
The moon is bursting with headlights
One more and we're away
Love tender in your Chevrolet

And we're a lot alike
In favor, like a motorbike
A sailor and a nightingale
Dancing in convertibles

And you can hold me like he held her
And I will f*ck you like nothing matters
And you can hold me like he held her
And I will f*ck you like nothing matters

Even when the cold comes crashing through
I'm putting all my bets on you
I hope they never understand us

I put my heart inside your palms
My home in your arms
Now we know nothing matters
Nothing matters

And you can hold me like he held her
And I will f*ck you like nothing matters
And you can hold me like he held her
And I will f*ck you like nothing matters
And you can hold me, like he held her
And I will f*ck you like nothing matters
And you can hold me like he held her
And I will f*ck you like nothing matters, ooh

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Mirror

This is the only thing
I know how to do
Make the keys turn red
And my lips turn blue

I'll break on the pavement
You could swim in these eyes
'Cause I'm no good until I crack

She's there when I wake up
At the end of my bed
With a smile on her face
And a gun to my head

And lately I've been thinkin'
What if I keep sinking?
If I drown will they make me a star?
When you drown
Do they know who you are?

I'm just a mirror
Break my glass to fix your heart
I'm just a mirror
Pretty glass, an empty heart
I'm just a mirror
I don't exist without your gaze

I fade away
I fade away

I'm on the hunt for a something
Warm, a pound of flesh
Is it in this city
Is it in your bed?
Crawl out with the sunrise
No one else is to blame

I'll leave you flowers
But not my name

'Cause lately I've been drinkin'
I need to stop my thinkin'
Tell me how you're feeling
I'll reflect the reason

When I drown
Will I get very far?
When you drown
They'll forget who you are

I'm just a mirror
Break my glass to fix your heart
I'm just a mirror
Pretty glass, an empty heart
I'm just a mirror
I don't exist without your gaze

I fade away
I fade away
I fade away