Love is how I became a person
That's probably why I'm so f*cking broken
I feel like that's all I can do
I feel like I don't know how to do anything else
I hate whatever love formed me
I feel like
As life went on it just
Was like watercolor
Just drifting in different directions
All the wrong directions
Because when I came out
That's when it started bleeding to the left
When I was seventeen
It bled to the right
I don't think that
That love made me who I am
But, it's all I can do
And all it's done
Is cause me so much pain
I feel like
I love too much
And wrong
I can't even hate someone right
I can never close
The book on anything
I just I keep re-reading it
Expecting to find different words
Even though I know
There's not different words
But I keep reading it
Trying to find different words
And there's never different words
I don't wanna love people anymore
I don't wanna need love from people anymore
Because I don't get it
Why?