Kristylez - Story of My Life Lyrics

Sometimes I just wanna give it up
Don't wanna move forth like I'm tied down stuck
I'm lost and I can't be found
Feel the same misery of a convict locked down
People judge me and they don't know the half of me
To them I'm a clown making jokes and laugh at me
Try my hardest to please so many people
While you in they life they take it for granted until they need you
Ungrateful they are talk behind my back a permanent scar
Enough to make me wanna be gone
Who am I, I ask myself I don't know
I'm just a boy who make music to relax my soul
Young Kristopher Keshard last name White
Spent my whole life battling wrong from right
Trying to find true happiness in my heart
But music is the only thing that keeps me from falling apart
How would you feel if you was fatherless
So many people enter you life that's heartless
How would you feel if you've been robbed so many times
You paranoid people think you on drugs and sniffing lines
How would you feel if people laughed at how skinny you are
Gain some weight boy look at your skinny arms
Looks at how he dress look at his tight clothes
He ain't no tough guy he lightskin and we all know
He single ain't got no hoe and mad slow
Look at what he got he damn sure ain't broke
He ain't never had to work for nothing
His moma gave him everything that punk nigga frontin'
He a mama's boy spoiled acting like he from the hood
He ain't never scene the block the chance he got I wish I could
Man I hate his dedication and his drive it make me sick
But foreal f*ck Kris he a straight up bitch
As time moves by
I ask myself why
Did I receive my life
I wish my daddy was there to teach me sports
I wish my dad was at my graduation to show support
I wish my dad was there to discipline me at times
To show me right from wrong from a man's side
It's been times when daemons took control of my mind
You might laugh and even ask me how and why
I don't know find myself doing things I never did
Doing drugs going against Gods will
The devil put thoughts in my head
He spotted my weakness and served it on a plate
Just to see if I would eat it
Deceived me to be defeated
And at the same time
I was hurting other people
Suicidal thoughts I continued to think if I was dead
Nobody could laugh at me no more that'd be the end
But God sent his angels to lead me from the sin
And showed me the pathway to walk towards him
I even felt it in my spirit to forgive
And hope that all the people I hurt would understand that
I'm just human fighting life with no weapons
And everyday lived is another learned lesson
How could you judge me when I don't judge you
If I was perfect then I would be above you
But I'm not so we equals
And that's the story of my life until the sequel
As time moves by
I ask myself why
Did I receive my life